I always wanted to be an engineer but somehow it didnt work out and had to settle with a diploma in mechanical engg.
During my college days right after school I worked part time with a market research company in my free time. My dad was a tailor and mother homemaker. With great difficulty we some how managed to lead a life. I loved my parents but didn't have a very happy childhood like my friends who were well of and they got whatever they wanted during there growing up days. I did not complain. I used to play cricket and loved playing the entire weekend.. I used to play with almost all d time one aftr d other and went home late.... I was favourably good at my studies and worked very hard to get good marks in all my exams... I faired well and joined college but didnt get enough marks to join engineering... Settled with diploma course.. I worked as direct marketer selling house hold goods and other products during my holidays.. I used to visit houses, offices, shops to sell the products and i would get meagre 10% commission and no monthly pay.. If i sold i am paid otherwise i wouldnt have any money.. There were days when i didnt have money to drink a cup of tea, didn't have money to use public transport... I used to feel so sad at my state. It was horrible. I couldnt imagine my plight those days.. I was tired.. Every day.. I didnt know what to do...
I finished my diploma and immediately joined a technical (mechanical) data entry company for a meagre salary of $45 per month.. My sister was also working so didnt have much pressure on me.. But i had to give $25 to my parents and the rest of the money i used to pay for bus pass and other small expense.. Mean while i referred one of my classmate and she joined my company. Soon we both fell in love and every one in d office came to know abt our relationship. My friends were happy for us.. She was from a different community hence her sistet objected to our relationship. Her sister used to fight with her and everyday she used to tell what her sister said and inturn we started fighting because of this.. I was so pissed off at one point i really didnt want this life.. Some or the other problem always f*** the shit out of my life.. One fine we fought so much and I really didnt know why she was serious... I didnt have any doubt on her that she was upto something..
I had to go to my native in a week for my sisters marriage... I came back to bangalore after my sisters marriage and met my girlfriend in the office.. I saw lot of changes in her... After few days i went back to kerala again to pick my mother.. At night I went to pee in the loo.. my leg slipped and i got stuck in the commode (indian style) I was bedridden for more than 2 months.. My relatives treated my very well.. My dad was all alone in bangalore and he was facing too much problem because he didn't have money... I don't know how he managed those days.. After 2 months i went back to bangalore and when I reached the office I was shocked..... (Contd ....)