#IntroduceYourself Vol. II: Prompts for Self Discovery by @overalladventures

Finished a month here at Steemit, and what's better way to celebrate it than an in-depth introductory post, right?

When I committed myself here, I promised to write more about my journey to #selflove and #selfhealing. Some of my readers might have already read intimate topics about myself such as my emotional letter to my Mom, my journey as an artist, my views on mental health, et al.

• Mother's Day Letter (May 2017)
• Be Kind To Those Who Are Constantly Hurt
• Art Diary: Slow And Steady Part I & Part II

You can read my 1st #introduceyourself post here.

First month at Steemit had been a sweet ride for me, and it hurts to think that I haven't been active for days because of my #mentalhealth. I swear guys, it isn't easy to function well when your body and mind is in tune to keep you pin in bed all day, although I swear to heavens that I am trying.

Anyway, to officially start this post, let me share to you a YouTube video that my good friend sent to me a few months ago of which I am itching to answer. And I guess the right time is now and the right place is here.

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Even though answering these questions leaves me vulnerable in the eyes of my readers, I will still answer them with brutal honesty in hopes that I can strike a conversation from a total stranger who struggles to survive just like moi. If you'd like to answer just one question, kindly comment them down below or use Steemit Chat to connect with me. I'd be really happy to know more about you and your story. I don't judge!

So, Let's start?

_{Please do not judge me based on my answers. Remember, be kind to those who are constantly hurt.}

10 SELF-DISCOVERY PROMPTS

• I was afraid of not finishing college when I reached the age of 20. Almost everyone I know personally discouraged me with my increasing interest in art because it is not a proper job. I am afraid of not pursuing art in this lifetime because there is no greater love than this.

• I am torn between starting my life as an artist and fulfilling my duties as the eldest of the family. I want to commit to an online Atelier school, but at the same time I want to help my brothers who are both in college. It's easy to say that I can do both, but you know, it's always easier said than done.

• If I am really honest with myself, I would like to be free from these demons. It is one of the reasons why I breakdown and cry myself to sleep. When my demons are actively killing me inside, I instantly have this urge to end my life. And it hurts me because I do not want it to be over yet.

• What stories do I tell myself about myself? First, I am not kind to myself for years now. I am very insecure. Whenever someone approaches me with all their good intentions, I still find fault in myself and instantly feel a lot more insecure. Stupid and nasty, right? But these days, I am trying to love myself more; trying to accept myself more.

• List of things that i don't understand about myself or questions I have for myself.
  <sub>1. I wonder what exactly happened between me and the people I loved that I came to question everyone's intention when pursuing me.
  2. Why do I have this deep abandonment issue? From being too codependent perhaps?
  3. But generally, I really do have awful trust issues.</sub>

• If my gut was a person, they would look just like me but with the grace of a woman: stable, mature, and peaceful. It would dress like a Parisian lady with all its simplicity. It would talk like a woman whose principles and virtues aren't easily shaken. A woman of conviction. A woman who forgives. And would say to me, "Stop beating yourself up from your past mistakes. They had to happen because you need to learn them first hand. Look at you now, aren't you all better than yesterday?"

• I don't want to write about sugar-coated lies. I am writing something very personal because I want my readers to remember that they are not alone; that someone will listen to them and not judge them. I believe it's a blessing to have someone who understands you despite how twisted you are inside, not to cradle you like a baby, but to remind of everyday that they survived yesterday and so can you.

• i love myself because I am empathetic. Sometimes it can get over the top, but my conviction to not judge right away is always stronger. And also because I try to be kind to every stranger I meet. Perfection is not the goal here, but consistency.

• Imagine you are going out to dinner with your truest self. Where would you go? What would you talk about? What questions would you ask? Although it is tempting to buy dinner outside, if I have to treat myself, then I'd be cooking my own stake paired with red wine. As for the location, I can go camping by the beach or on top of the hill, and spend the night warming myself with a bonfire. Nothing to talk much about, except when checking my feelings thorouhgly. If I am good, the night would be long and silent. If I am not, then I'd be asking myself more questions to come up with a good plan on how to kill the sadness.

• I am becoming the graceful woman I aim to be.

_{Photo by Lucas Silva Pinheiro Santos}

And that is it! Again, if you'd like to answer one of the 10 prompts, comment them down below or DM me through Steemit Chat! :)

Namaste, Stranger!

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