Hi family of steemit!
I signed up yesterday, and over time I hope to meet some good friends here on steemit and meet up IRL on my travels.
I've been dreaming of being a part of a big, kind, fun, adventurous, traveling family of 10-50 people moving between countries together. The pictures below are from one attempt of creating such a community.
We had fun but had different plans and freedom levels, I'll still keep trying forever. :)
If we seem like minded or share interests and you will be in Philippines, Singapore, the rest of Asia, California or Sweden in 2019 let's see if we can do some fun and productive meet ups and collabs!
This post turned out way too long, but I hope some enjoy it in some way!
For my whole life I have had lots of anxiety about how people would gossip and talk about me if I was in any form of center of attention, so I would make myself as invisible as possible and leave 99% of my videos, photos and art in hard drives, besides a few times when I could not say no to the chance of representing some idea or project somewhere.
In march 2018 I decided to face my fear of people's opinions and start to express myself more on the internet, post some videos and so on. It's been a year of many times feeling like a loser compared to what I try to do/be, but I will keep doing it and I only regret starting so late.
The best way to fight my fear was to do what I was afraid of and understand that the people who looked down on me are free to do so, it's none of my business and has all to do with them, little to do with me.
Still happy I didn't eat concrete on this one. L.A. River
Oups... Breaking Braille property. Oakland S.F.
Venice Beach <3
Interviewing young, successful people who are also striving upwards, yet have already come so far in doing things similar to what I wish I did in their age or even now, is both fun, inspiring and tough at the same time, to be honest. I'mDontai, iLOVEFRIDAY duo Xeno Carr, Aqsa Maliq. Part 1 here. https://d.tube/v/david-krug/fo9zv66p
Josh Levi
With Essen, I had her sign up on Steemit today. :) https://d.tube/v/david-krug/hwt8ezca
No that I know that the Mako shark i was teasing is the fastest shark in the sea I'm happy I still have an arm to hold my gopro with. I really think it considered is friends and thought i was gonna feed it with the shiny fishlike camera.
This shark had eaten a huge swordfish but was still hungry enough that it wanted to chew on our rubber tube boat and we had to slap it over and over and it still came back haha. It was so weird.
Chris Record
Sam Tsui
Terryboy Gustave
The people who like who we are should be our focus. Those who don't like who we truly are should know who we are so they can stay away.
Before this I was focusing on the price of more people knowing about me, to have people being jealous or gossiping or talking badly about me, not liking attention that I would get.
Then I realized the much higher price: The like minded people I found on social media and would love to know has no idea of what I'm about, how like minded I am, what I am trying to do, how great I would fit into their channel, circle of friends or projects.
Goof interview in L.A. with a serious subcontext, veganism. I went fruitarian for 6 years in 2010 and now I've mixed mostly fruit and some vegan food from 2016 til now.
Fruit and veganism improved my life quality so much, I'm forever grateful.
Posting food or making food is really not me, but occasionally I make sweet, healthy (n)icecream from just frozen bananas and berries. This is in my home village (age 2-19). I had beautiful summers and lonely boring winters as a child.
I also stumbled on this photo of sweet raw balls from healthy dates, licorice root, coconut & karob.
Last summer visiting the small beach town I grew up in and now rarely spend time in. I only have one friend left from age 6 that I still see every year and this is him. I'm excited that him and his family will travel Asia next year and we can meet up.
Because I was invisible online, no one could stumble on me and find out what I was like and get inspired to meet up for adventures and collabs together. So now I'm trying to change, to work to become more visible, even if few cares.
I wish I did this earlier in life now that I realize how many chances I threw away. So from now on I'm training myself to show who I am and what I try to do, but I have still just pushed myself to get 1-5% of my videos and photos out, out of fear of people's reactions to it and also lack of motivation.
I like to design and create useful art that kids can climb on and skaters can skate on.
Here are some of them, maybe to small to really see?
A "LIVE FREE" brick ramp that I made an autumn when I dreamed of being free enough to travel to the sun and adventure. Keeps reminding me of how blessed I am now, while it also sends a healthy message to the kids. :)
Skateboarding on a LOVE sculpture I made to promote love at a time when I was a bit of a victim of a crime.
Sometimes I get excited to do things partly because they are weird and fun. That's how I came to build this skateboard car in Sweden, and also how I came to ship it to South Africa and drive around and skate at children's homes and with street kids.
I wish I had enough money to do more half crazy things like that to bring smiles and laughs to people (don't we all?), so that is part of why I regret so much not investing in crypto in 2010 when I had money but invested in something with little to no return.
This is also why I am really determined to go more and more into crypto now despite my losses from crypto going in at the exactly wrong time in late 2017, to maybe be able to do more things like this and much more odd things in some years from now.
I'm not a fan of GMO, Monsanto, Syngenta or round up so I happily accepted to join the march against Monsanto.
When a grumpy elephant tells you to sit down and shut the F up you should obey. I did sit down and talk more quietly. For a few seconds I was a bit concerned for the safety of my Swedish visitor. Later I moved to a house with elephant guests and got used to having both peaceful and grumpy elephants right in front of me.
In a safe cage putting my gopro by the mouth of a 6 meter great white who got stuck on the cage. I was considering if I could get away with breaking the rules and touch the teeth and chin but I was scared that skipper "Sharkman" Mike Rutzen would get very angry with me since he just told me it was bad to touch sharks. I decided to respect the rules and I will always regret that my hand is not on the tooth in this picture an video. At least until i get the chance to do it right.
I was extremely determined and focused to meet a playful whale and some dolphins and the others stayed in the boat because of high waves and lot's of sharks attracted by the sardine migration, so I think that I did deserve to get lucky with this upside down humpback whale selfie. Even got a dolphin in there. :)
I was also very lucky that this X ton whale tail fin swooshed right by me without breaking me when the whale was diving down.
Isn't it ironic that I was doing all these things that could get me injured yet I was so scared of a big, very harmless thing on my bucket list that I had suppressed it for 20 years. To just give people a chance of knowing who I dream of becoming and who I really am. At my best and at my worst.
I would travel in Africa at night and have to fight robbers and run away from people considering to murder me, I'd walk out dangerously close to irritated elephants, growling lions, rhinos, hippos and made some supposedly unsafe skydiving moves that I got criticized for and I was criticized for planning to base jump with too little skydive experience. I was swimming in great white shark populated water to get too close to a whale that in itself got inches from injuring me with the huge tail fin.
So now I've gotten started with showing my "at my best part". So far, I am yet to get the guts to show myself on video at my worst.
I have hours of videos from hospitals or from anxious or boring days and from days of big failure or regret that I am worried of posting.
In case it hasn't been obvious yet, I love animals, from dogs and cats to monkeys and the occasional mongoose.
Maybe blabbering about all these fears is some of the "at my worst"-part? Who am I to talk so much about myself? Who cares about some random person with no views? You know the feeling?
So I'm training myself to look at my videos with 0-30 views and no comments and think: At least I am not hiding anymore, let me just focus on living my life and sharing some of it in case someone out there in the future may find value in it or meet me because of it and turn into a good friend or project partner.
Now after a year, it gets a little easier, some have a few hundred views, but it is still nothing and so many hours that could be used for other things. Will it be worth it? Who knows.
You never know who you may comfort or even inspire or meet by just being your random self online or who you may meet in the future because of it.
I'm still way more comfortable with focusing on the reader or on my projects than I am focusing on myself, which is why I didn't do this introduceyourself post first of all my posts. But no it's done and a bit overly done perhaps?
Now this post turned into the opposite of what I was planning on.
I was planning pictures with a tiny bit of shallow descriptive text. Nothing deep and vulnerable to be anxious over, nothing time consuming and no book, keep it simple, no one wants to read much anyways.
Let me add those pics and short texts and call it a day. :)
Hmm, this is the roof of where I am right now, so why did I just spend two days in a row neglecting the pool and my work to post things on Steemit that maybe no one will have use of of like?
I guess I'm hoping that I will meet friends here that will be worth it or maybe a tiny hope of a following that will enable me to do good things for people.
Or maybe I just have little logic and self control at times and I get in a psychosis of sharing/creating that makes little sense at all? I'd say a combination.
Either way I hope to find some reason to be coming back to steemit and keep inviting my friends to join as I did with a couple of my two closest friends already.
Have a blessed day steemit peeps!
Other of my steemit posts so far:
What can I contribute on steemit & dtube? Reflection & Thank Yous after 100 hours of steemit addiction
dtube @essen.vicente on picking up girls & hers and your dreams.
dtube From 0 to 92 million views. iLOVEFRIDAY share their strategies
How the "Art of Happiness" audio could improve your life as it improved mine
How I lost $25.000 dollars on crypto and how you avoid it. AKA crypto beginners advice to crypto beginners.
EDIT:
I would love to thank you who resteemed this post!
Thanks @bashadow @futuremind & @steemstreems ! If there are more resteems let me know and I'll add you in future post.
Is there a place where I can see all who resteemed a certain post?
A few days after each post I would like to check who has resteemed add a thank you to them either in the post they shared or add a thank you to them in my next post (depending on what is most appreciated and works with edit resource cost).
Thank you so much The Introduceyourself Helpie Curation Incentive
@helpie @helpiecake and @futuremind for these words and in your post, that made my steemit week and made me feel that the time I put into my introduceyourself was appreciated.
Big THANK YOU to my first followers making it meaningful to post! Hopefully! : )
@futuremind @pennsif @anhvu @carlgnash @c-cubed @laniakea1 @shera2 @pgshow @stormlight24 @gibic @c-squared @mukhtarlc @skramatters @steemstreems @lorreli @grintsch @goat-girlz @marc5 @voteme @abcor @marcusmalone @weijin @raise-me-up
And of course a big thank YOU to anyone who commented and upvoted any of my posts
I appreciate it and that's why I try to upvote and answer everything, which I may or may not be able to always do on time. Now I may take some days off, but give me some feedback on my post about what you want me to post first Thank you!!!