"Life's challenges are not meant to break you, but to shape you into a stronger, wiser, and more resilient version of yourself." Unknown
Hi,ICIAH here from the beautiful province of Tabogon.It's my first time here in the world of HIVE.As a first timer,i'm still figuring out what works best on me so I will start first to introduce myself and how the twist of life help me to shape my morals.Join me as I share my roller coaster life.
I was born in Toledo City,my father's birthplace and my parents decided to name me after my grandmother's name;Lucricia and that's why I am Patricia Mae.I have been surviving the life for 20 years.
I grow up in Donghoy Labangon Tabogon Cebu and create my best memories there to look upon to.As I grow and figuring what really life is,I thought it's all about having fun and be free. I play and play,the scar around my knee are the witness of how good my childhood is.I thought life is all about collecting toys but the world always has it's twist that could make anyone go crazy handling it.
I am the eldest among the 3 siblings,and being the eldest fells like I have to rush about life in order for my family to experience good life.Growing up,I was being looked up by my siblings and it feels nice to be looked up by them.It is not easy to be the good role model for them,you have to experience something in life first so that you could teach them how to deal with it. How I wish to have an older sister,the one that will help you during your college interview exams,the one who will fill up the application portal in order for you to secure a spot for your dream course,the one who's willing to go with you during your entrance exam even though she also has a class to attend,a sister that will never let you fell being alone in the times that you needed someone to talk to.But I guess the universe has it's purpose why I am the eldest.
During my elementary days and high school days,I am a consistent honor student.I never fail to make my parents proud every card days.But little did I know,that will make me feel drained.I have set the expectations for myself that will make me loss my happiness as a kid.I drowned myself unto studying.I'm afraid that i'll be the disappointment that my parents had,to the point that I will cry if I had a passing score and not the perfect one.I was driven by the desire of always winning and afraid of lossing.I am always striving for the next award,next recignittion and next winning.But with this high expectations to myself,it became the downfall of my mental health.As I experience my first ever setbacks,it feels like being smashed in the face.I started questioning my abilities,started to feel insecure and started to loss myself because who am I without my academic validations.
Handling situation with a heavy heart was like punching a bunch of broken glass.When life throw the very first blade unto my life,I was so scared.I was overthinking;can I do it?where should I hold unto?.Until I overcome it all,I realize how those challenges shape me as a person and how I handle things.I thought I can do all the challenges that life may throw,but I was just hallucinating.I am not still prepared to the other downfall of my life.
My first ever introduction to chess seems normal to me and not knowing that this game will become my passion and will heal what's broken in me.Its cute how I ended up being addicted to this game.At first,I was just interested to it because I had a crush to the boy player who played as the board 1.But little did I know that this will be the starting point of my life's new journey.As I started to play the game,I incounter a lot of heartbreak due to the losses of every game that I do.Like hello,my pride cant bare it.I love playing and winning but I hate lossing because it makes me feel like the hardwork that i've spent to master the plans and every little move to that game will turn out useless.As my first experience of lossing,I was so drained and quit for a week.It feels like im doomed because I loss.Until I've found a circle of friends that helped me to understand the purpose of lossing sometimes.Lossing doesn't mean that your a losser,lossing means you have to improve something that you fell is enough to win.Lossing will make you the better version of yourself,better than before and will be more better for the future.
I am now a college student who's pursuing my dream career.I am still learning about life, and adapting unto the lifes twisted game. It's funny how I manage to enter the university that I am currently studying.I am alone that time and I didn't know who am I going to ask about something that I don't know.The campus was huge,a lot of unfamiliar faces,and I don't know where to go.It took me an hour to finally find the location for my interview.I don't have someone to accompany me since i'm leaving alone in the city.I thought that will be the most stressful event that I may faced,but during the first day of school,I was being left out.I'm not aware that this is college.I'm not prepared to this kind of chaos.I'm just grateful that I still make it.Sometimes we just think that we are soo weak to do so, but if you try you will be shock about how much more you can do.
Who introduced me to HIVE?
At first I thought it was just something that will waste my time,but someone did a great job on helping me to understand what hive is.Thanks to @callmesmile for introducing me into this amazing world of HIVE.Now I am starting my very first journey,I am hoping for the best and will keep going.
AJA everyone.This is ICIAH,always remember that even though life throws a lot of fires to burn you,always see the bright side. Turn it into fireworks and let everyone see how beautiful you are.