I'm Back!

(And I've got shit to say)

Alright, for those of you that know and love me:

I'm sorry for leaving you. My world has been upside down and that is not a proper excuse. I left you hanging and you felt it. I should've stayed next to you regardless of my own shit and I'm sorry. I want you to know that through my pain I still thought of you. I remembered and loved you. I was just to weak to reach out.

I'm finally healing!

I'm more powerful now than I was.

What I've endured has given me strength.

It's finally time for you to meet the real me.

For those of you that know me and hate me:

Thank you!

Your hatred empowers me and you're unable to stop.

This gives me unlimited energy and I'm eternally grateful.

You're also about to meet the real me so buckle up.

For those of you that don't know me (or only knew a version of me), I'll introduce the real me:

Hi, I'm Michael David.

An asshole to some and a friend to others.

A wizard, in disguise as an elf, that thinks he's a human.

This is my page. By coming here and reading my words you've entered my world. Please be respectful while in my world. In my world I'll help anyone I can that's on my path. Helping those that are not on your path often makes things worse and I've learned this lesson.

I've learned a lot of life's lessons and I'm here to share them. Raw as fuck, cause sugarcoating only rots your teeth.

I'm also not afraid of a fight. If you're here to cause trouble I'm not the asshole that will engage you. I'm the asshole that will teach you your place.

My teeth are sharp and my embrace is soft.

I've learned what real magic is and I'm here to share what I've learned with anyone that needs it.

I have a purpose and being here on hive is part of that purpose. (even if it did take me years to understand that)

I'm a passionate person. Passionate people can be wordy, excitable, emotional, and tend to over explain. I am all of these things and more.

I have at least 2 voices.

I have a human voice that feels and speaks exactly like you do about most things. He cries and yells and fucks up just like any other human.

I also have another voice. A voice that channels things I sometimes don't understand yet myself.

To truly learn me and what I'm on about when I write or speak, you'll want to be able to see the difference.

The "other voice" knows no gender, race, creed, religion, human law, sexual preference, nor any other human idea used to instill confusion and further the demise and oppression of the human entity or any other.

When I'm speaking in my "other voice", I'm not human.

This voice usually comes to teach something that humans frequently have issues understanding. When this voice is channeling through me, there is no process... It's automatic and can come without warning in the middle of a sentence.

To "channel" I don't have to meditate or say words or breathe a certain way. I don't have to kiss the ground or pay homage to a deity. I don't have to make long ominous pauses, hold sacred items, or any of the shit you see some "gurus" do before they "channel".

It just fucking happens.

As it should.

Often the result of a wide spectrum of stimuli. Sometimes as simple as asking me a tough life question, or one seemingly not answered, can turn it on.

This "other voice" never comes to harm.

Never.

It's not happened even once and it's been there since I was around 3 years old (I'm 45 today). Though sometimes the words spoken in this state are painful to hear or read, it has always been to help and and those it touches know it.

The "other voice" is always quite fair on universal scales.

When it's not meant for you it's easy to tell.... you won't understand.

I, as human or otherwise, will never apologize for anything said in this "other voice" yet I will apologize when my human self has fucked up.

I have visions.

Some people will tell you that visions are rare. Some will tell you they aren't real. For me they are very real and quite common. These visions started when I was 3yo, when I watched my own birth. I'll share that story some other time if it seems wanted or needed.

I do not create, or initiate these visions. I cannot consciously choose to go into a vision, nor can I control what they show me. When they happen I often have no idea what they mean and have to search for that meaning. Once I finally find their meaning they have yet to be wrong.

I understand energy and see intention.

Everyone gets distracted from time to time yet I see vividly what a persons intentions are most of the time. This can make me seem cold or aloof if your intentions are unwell.

I understand energy at it's core and have practiced wielding many energies.

I'm not afraid to cuss.

I will just fucking cuss sometimes and there is nothing you can do about it so deal. I've learned exactly what the fuck cussing actually is and I've taught this to all of my children. If you would like to know what cussing really is ask me and I'll share it in another post.

I have studied.

I have spent the majority of my adult life, and some of my child life, studying. When I was 8yo my dad took me to restaurant downtown (very small town) at the stop sign. He taught me that day how to study people without noticing they are being watched. Creepy, I know lol. It was for study for him as well. You can learn so much about a person, human behavior, and about yourself, from watching people.

Since then I've been fascinated with the human mind and experience.

I have not stopped studying people daily since that day. By watching, listening, reading, asking, and even teaching things I've learned. Not one day passes that I'm not at least asking the universe questions.

I've learned astutely how to ask our universe questions and get real answers without ever picking up a book, seeing another person or otherwise having any other interactions.

I've never been to formal schooling outside of high school and a certification in internet marketing that I never really used.

There isn't a type of knowledge that I fear. No matter how harsh, evil, good, small, large, scary, intimate, personal or other I will study it if it's on my path.

I know duality.

Read that as it is written.

It's only 3 words.

Are you understanding all 3 of them?

I can see both dark and light equally without fear or judgement. I can see the spectrum of both sides of most things in our world.

I can walk through the darkest shadows and in blinding light as normal as eating a sandwich.

You cannot scare me with pieces of yourself. I've very likely seen worse.

I have flaws!

Bruh...

I got flaws for days!

I've said the wrong things, done the wrong things, and thought the wrong things. I've made as many mistakes as there are hairs on my head.

All of it took part in leading me to exactly where I stand now.

Each and every one adding its own glimmer to the raw, uncut, man in front of you today.

I have walked many paths and they have all been my own.

I've been rich and immensely poor. I've been overwhelmingly strong and grotesquely weak. I've been hurtful and hurt. Ive been judged and judgmental. I've been loving and loved. I've been astute and confused. I've been helpful and harmful. I've been human, and something else.

I've worn many hats and I've met many people. I've travelled to distant lands and lived with people that are unlike myself. I've learned the ways of countless others. I've been a teacher and been taught. I don't borrow to live and what I have is my own.

I've fallen and I've risen.

I've had experiences that will give you chills. I've also seen overwhelming real life miracles.

I've studied the human experience since I was 8yo. I've learned our likeness and our difference.

I've started and ran to many businesses to count. I've kept some of them at my core throughout.

I've seen this world from the inside out and I'm understanding more of how it works daily.

Sometimes I'm a who, and sometimes I'm a what.

Last time I was here

It was still steem, I was hiding behind a guise of "inspiration" when I was really in pain.

This time you'll see and feel my pain, flaws and fuckups. By exposing these things you'll see that I'm the same human you are. That you're not alone in your pain or mistakes.

We all feel pain and make mistakes.

I'm exposing myself completely raw this time so that those that need to know anything I've been through can see that their situation is not that unique.

That someone else in this world has also been there and made it through.

If i can help at least one person by exposing myself to the world then I've helped the world.

I'll show you when I've cried, when I've screamed and when I've fucked up.

This time I'm not holding back because the universe needs me raw.

I'm not a fucking guru, I'm a man. A man standing naked in font of you now.

Vulnerable and exposed with all flaws visible.

Wanting the world to heal.

I'm not fully healed and have more work to do. This one fact makes it imperative that I share my journey.

Exposing my healing in real time is the gift I aim to give. It's sometimes to hard to explain after and things are missed.

I'm here to share, to learn and to teach.

I'll mostly be sharing. If you learn from what I've shared then I've taught. Learning is in every part of life and I do it every day.

A teacher is not a person with a title.

A teacher is a person that has shared something another has learned from, a student is merely someone that has listened and learned.

I left when this was still "Steem" so i have a lot to re-learn. (thus how bare this post is.) Please excuse anything I "should already know" and offer pointers if you see me lacking in things like formatting, markup or images or anything else that could help my posts pop.

I am who I am, and I am Michael David.

It's great to meet, and re meet, you all.