Hello, Hive!
Since I am new to the platform, I felt compelled to introduce myself again. I guess this will also be my entry to #introduceyourself here on Hive.
I am Kenn and I'm from Philippines. I am a teacher, an aspiring writer, and a poet. It has been my dream to write my heart because there are times that words from my mouth are not just enough to express what I feel.
Fortunately, two years ago, I was introduced to a community that shed light on that dream and that was Steemit Inc. Two years ago, I was that aspiring writer and blogger who's so excited to bleed in writing.
Back when I started, I was learning the platform all by myself since the one who introduced it to me, @kimroxan, was also a first-time user of the platform. I had difficulties during the first few months learning everything but I can still remember how passionate I was in learning those new skills because I was loving what I was doing back then.
Until one day, I found the community of Cebuano Steemians, and right there and then, I've found not just support but also new friends.
I will never forget the time when I started from scratch—learning how to edit texts, add pictures to blogs, then to meeting friends, attending free orientations about the platform, to attending Steem Summit — the very first big gathering of Cebuano Steemians, and facilitating outreach programs like Project S.M.I.L.E.S. initiated by my dear friend, @indayclara, until I ventured on building my website with the help of another dear friend, @smaeunabs.
But one day, everything has changed.
The Day When I Was Starting to Fail
Everything has changed when I started to venture into one thing that I did not study so well. It was a reckless decision because I was not well equipped with knowledge as well as with materials needed for the job.
What I'm referring to is when I tried to build my website.
At first, everything was all so fine. I was happy writing there. I was passionate about what I was doing (who wouldn't be if you are working on your long dream?). I was that total jerk who wrote anything I could think of. Who cares? It's my blog, right?
But eventually, I ran out of ideas. On top of that, my articles are not that needed on the web. With that, the traffic on my website became lower and lower every single day. It also became the reason why the third-party company that puts advertisements on my web page discontinued my privilege.
And so, I made the wrong decision of writing mediocre posts. It was even flagged by steempress (since it's connected through steempress). I was so ashamed of myself at that time. Because of that shame, you can even see that I have edited some of my posts here saying "Post Deleted" — I wish to delete it, but I can't.
After that incident, I realized that I was wrong. Though after that, I still stood up and continued writing well-written (to the best of my knowledge) blogs even without the privilege from steempress. In short, I accepted the consequences of my actions.
Along with that wrong deed will also be the lessons that I will be bringing in this platform or to any new platforms in the future that will be introduced to me.
What Happened Next?
It was like I came into the arena unprepared. At times, there's one or two who visited my site but at most, there's none. I can't also hide the truth that I need to have an income to keep it running. Unfortunately, I have less, close to none. That's why I decided to stop working on it.
And that was the moment that I failed.
After deciding to pause for a little in writing, not too long, I have heard news and rumors about major changes on Steemit already. But still, I was that failed person passionate about writing and stuff, my high hopes about steem didn't go.
Moment by moment, the community that has helped me slowly faded because aside from the problem inside the platform, there are also issues between members and leaders that arose. But still, I was that failed person passionate about writing who thought that it won't end. I was also thinking that the situation would mend since I believe in all the leaders of the community.
But I was wrong.
Then,everything became memories suddenly.
Also, I was diagnosed with a minor internal health issue that required me to rest more.
After I failed
A lot of good things and bad things happened after that failure. I became too focused on my day job since I can't also joggle many things at hand because of my state. Though, from time to time, I keep on lurking on steemit for I have missed much not just writing but also the people I met there.
To satisfy my craving for writing, I tried running several pages on Facebook without revealing myself as the administrator of the pages because I don't have that much confidence to say to anyone on FB that "Hey! Check this out, I'm writing!". I still have this notion that though that platform is convenient and useful enough to everyone it still has many toxic users that I am avoiding. It's different here —in here, comments are more supportive and criticisms are more constructive. In short, I love the atmosphere here.
But eventually, in 2020, I decided to show up using a new page bearing my name Kenn. Maybe, that was because I was longing for an outlet where I can express my craft again. In there, I post musings and prose as well as some video logs.
And for my personal life, after I decided to pause in writing, I came to know the Lord as the Truth — not just the way I knew him before superficially.
Who's the Morken Now?
I guess I have shared enough a part of what happened to me when I was on hiatus. And so, let me share now who's the new Morken, what can I possibly contribute to this platform, and what are my expectations and hopes about Hive.
Morken
The new Morken is still a work in progress. I can never achieve perfection but I can tell that I have improved. I guess that's more important. I can never perfect myself but at least I am growing every single day.
I still have a lot to improve in writing. I am not good like anybody else. But I guess writing does not require us to be good at writing in the first place. The purpose why we start typing or writing down the words in our mind is way more important than wanting to be like somebody else or surpassing anyone else.
Why Am I Here Again?
Thank God, my other friend, @chuuuckie never stopped reminding me from time to time to go back to writing. He's the one who told me about this new platform — Hive. Now, that the school year is about to end, I am looking for platforms where I can give all my energy during vacation. I guess I have found the right platform now.
I will still post about my thoughts in life and love and anything under the sun. I am excited to share some of my poems and proses here too. If there's an opportunity, I would also love to join some initiatives (like gift-giving) soon if the communities here in Cebu will flourish in time. And I will still be that passionate person who loves to share ideas with the community.
My Hopes about Hive Platform
I am a typical user of this platform who just knew a little about technical things here. But I've heard and believed that Hive is more concerned with its users — I will hold on to this belief. My hopes are high about Hive.
I am excited about my future here and to the future of this platform.
But the best thing that I am excited about here is the new friendships that are about to unfold.
Conclusion
I have said many things already. So, let me end this narrative by saying that...
I am Morken, you can call me Kenn, signing in.