IT JUST SIMPLY SHOCKED ME !!! I LITERALLY CRYING FOR U GUYS !!!
First of all, it has been two days since I posted my first introduction.
Well, u can tell how the internet works these days, mainstream net like youtube, Instagram, medium, and others don't really put money even for the first year try out, the algorithm doesn't fit so well since the big company decided to get along.. so it has been tough for people like me, who don't have any audience. Long story short I open peakd.com just for a normal check...
AND WOW !!!
exactly like this but with tears, # I SWEAR TO GOD
People who never met just put vote and comment ( I still really don't understand how vote, post, hive power, hive coin works... I mean it tho.. I really don't understand it AT ALL, please guys teach me). I really don't believe my eyes I'd checked again and again, it is written $25.67 too, I MEAN U GUYS AS COOL AS ICE !!!... I know what I tell you earlier about I'm going to put my journalistic suburban life but I guess I really want to this to u guys I really want to say HELLO MY DEAR FELLOW PEDESTRIAN, THANKS FOR UR SUPPORT , it means a lot since CORONA HITS ME HARD force me to close my studio, TOTAL DAMAGE in my financial system.
Quote i'd checked again and again
After u guys respond, I really on all gadgets to make sure myself LOL
Anyway, after I fixed myself out of a Happiness, I literally sit my ass down straight on the street bench with iphone on personal hot spot, and I was in confused because straight I want to post new article and reply those comment of the COOL people, Hive simply won't allowed me, thats why I dont reply any.
I think this blog was about extention of introduction of previous one and this little bit summary of my struggle, i worked almost 14 hours a day to make sure everything that i put in the internet in terms of Jurnalistic, Photography, Videography, Writting Design and hasn't yielded results... im not going to say like "im okay with that , the name is hustle", oh man.. NO !!! HELL NO !!!, i've lost many thing for this, like MANY THING, including my Fiance.
Dont get me wrong, I do my best to get what i need to achieved but it seems doesn't work.. yet.. and at the same time money keep rushing down but also I dont want to ended what I'd started so I really appreciate Hive and the community that being so warm to me, even tho I have no followers yet but i think percentages of survive rates are higher in this community.
at the very least I think im not going to experience this again.
- Fiance issue
- Money issue
- Parents issue
- Sleeping issue
- Mental issue
MANY MORE..
and I swear it friend in the name of all Religion or God, my mental recently pushed me to end all of this, I really hate the situation, like it screams to me again and again whisper and never stop "wouldn't it be better if I wasn't in this world" and then come you guys..🙏 I really want to make my out of this TOXIC circle and I dont want to put you in dark but honestly if i should kill then i would to make my way out.
...😢☠️
Im not going to make this like chessy kissing ass situation, or at least try not to, but really.. after this last introdustion , im going to show u my best and if this hit 10 times more than before I DEFINETLY GOING TO MAKE SHORT MOVIE ABOUT HIVE AND THE COMMUNITY, I'LL SHOW U WHAT I'VE GOT, i promise that short film going to be the best on Hive.
and..
for what i just said, i never put my sad face to gain attraction , i hope u can feel what i feel and for all of you that been in this same situation, i think you know what im talking about, i feel the rage inside of you, i hate my family too, i hate those who junk me for no reason too, and i want to do it too especialy to those who done this to me, but hey.. who knows what happen to you if you keep carry on in the straight road...
thats why I'd cried, because I know Im not lonely anymore.