life is pretty crazy at the moment but in the middle of it all i feel the need to write for sure, i've already broken the first rule of blogging on the blockchain by writing in the form instead of my notepad but fuck it, if i lose this text that's the least of my worries for today right?
Outside of the blockchain drama it's been a heck of a last couple of weeks let me tell you -- i've watched, experienced or third hand be party to a parent lose her daughter to hanging (suicide) and the echos of the pain of hearing about someone having to make the call to switch of the machine while someone is brain damaged to people complaining that they might have to cancel their wedding because of corona.
The sliding scale of what is important to people has been quite staggering i have to say, i don't think it's truly sunk in yet at a core level what we are currently in the middle of -- i guess while their is internet, food, resources then people are not gonna be in fear or panic.
I'm thankful for the time, the time to be at peace with the life i've lived and have so far. It's very important to make peace with that i think, only within that can you truly be free for whatever comes next.
I've been privy to see hoards of people line up for bread and eggs today, told about local villages getting cleaned our of food and supplies and heard loved ones talking to their children about safe deposit boxes and 'what to do' in the case of something happening.
Lots of reality from apathy kicking in for a lot of people, lots of eyes open for the first time in a long time. I'm sure this next week and the weeks after are going to look insane when it comes to numbers of infected and potentially dead.
Now that i'm completely isolated and i have the roadmap of everyday short term life my last four years of isolation from the masses does not really seem that different than now, the only difference is everyone else is trying to come to terms with what this means as a person.
It's a lot of emotional internal soul searching, finding things you don't like to bring up or expose, deep rooted principles and things put off that you said you was gonna do one day. You've certainly got the time now to resolve a bunch of them, find peace within them, go out living not existing.
Just like the worker bee that protects the queen, we do our tasks, perform our role and return to our hexagon lair to regenerate on the daily.
Stay Frosty.
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