Through the group I spent so much time with in Jr. High, I met a variety of people, but one guy, M, stood out from the rest. M was older, 4 years older, which is significant when you are a teenager. I knew of him, saw him occasionally, and of course I was attracted to him... but nothing happened, why would it? That is until the year I graduated from high school.
We crossed paths that summer, and much to my surprise, he had been into me as much as I'd been into him, but neither of us had said anything. Isn't that always the way. The age difference was a big contributing factor, but that summer it no longer was. I knew that nothing serious would happen with M: I was leaving for university in a few weeks, and I just wanted to have some fun before going off to a new city and a new life, and he seemed like the best way to enjoy it.
That summer we had so much fun... and he introduced me to so many things. His experience, his kinks, I was curious, I wanted to learn more, I wanted to try more. I couldn't get enough of it. Before that point I had never had a sexual partner who really knew what he wanted, other than K, who wanted more than just getting his rocks off, who put in any additional effort in. I never had someone so capable of bringing me to climax... I learned very quickly I was not quiet, and he loved it. His roommate and him would have these challenges to see who could make their partner scream more. M always won. But it wasn't just the orgasms, it was the rope - oh the rope... the different ways he restrained me, the different ways he positioned me, the sensory play, blindfolds, pain with pleasure. It was an entirely different experience than anything else prior to him. We would spend hours playing, pausing only for him to have a quick cigarette before going at it again. It's the only time I ever enjoyed the smell, it became part of the experience. He was always so good about checking with me before trying something new with me, and always made sure I was good with it before continuing. I learned so much; I experienced so much with him that summer.
It should have been the beginning of a whole new world of sexual pleasure and awareness. But it wasn't in the cards for me, not yet at least...