So, I posted the other day about my issues with depression. It's about 9 months since I first began to emerge from my longest and darkest bout. I'm still working my way back up.
For sure, stress is not helping. We can only work online here because we don't have work permits, and it's slow going sometimes. We've had serious financial challenges. As the one who keeps track of everything, that stress pushes me back into the abyss.
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Here's the thing, though. I've studied law of attraction for 14 years. I know what I'm doing to myself with the stinkin thinkin. I know that my thoughts are freaking counter productive to both joy and abundance. So I'm taking charge and getting back to what I know to work.
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One of the challenges with depression is the way it totally saps the shit out of your energy. So many days I just can't bring myself to do anything. I'm just wiped. So, this is my new strategy! When I'm feeling good, like today, I'm setting myself up to manage better when the darkness hits.
For a long time now, including through the dark depression, I have meditated and done gratitude lists. Those have kept me alive. Those are basic maintenance. If you're not in that practice, I strongly recommend it. For me, 20 minutes is plenty. I'm not into the hours of meditation. Just not my jam. My gratitude list is just that. 30ish things every morning that make my heart glad. Those two are my baseline.
So just this week, partly thanks to @arbitrarykitten and partly thanks to @shello and partly of course to me, I have begun to put some basic processes back in my life. I've become more disciplined with visualizing. I've been writing mantras. And I'm putting love notes to myself around the house. If I don't love myself, who will?!
So here's hoping these will bring some light to my heart when darkness comes. I have found a few things that help me out already. It helps me to see it and name it. It helps me to express it, though there is certainly a point of diminishing returns if I blab on for too long. It helps me to make commitments to others, especially those who understand.
So, tell me. Do you deal with depression? How do you peel back the darkness? Sometimes LOA can feel annoying in that spot, right? How the hell can I focus on positive when I'm crushed by this weight? And yet I know LOA works. I've witnessed it in my life, with fun times and challenges. Joy or frustration, we are always manifesting. That's why I'm loving this strategy. Happy me is sending sad me good juju!! Anything that helps me shift faster is super welcome. I've no interest in denying where I'm at. I just wanna see it and then shift it. Lickety split.