Whenever I start a thing I want to become good at it. I'm talented in picking things up quickly and also seeking to determine what it's all about. I can tap into various realities and scenes quite easily. This may be a blessing or a curse.
Once I figured out the Basic's or maybe the Advanced knowledge of a topic, I quit. Mainly because I'm getting bored with it. I start to search for something new. This tendency can be applied to most of my life situations. With Jobs, Skills, School, Traveling, Relationships et cetera.
There's always something stopping me from going to the next level. Become a genuine professional at one thing. I don't know why. I am doing this since I'm a young child. From an exceedingly young age.
Or possibly I am far too self-critical. I know, that I am gifted in plenty of things.
At what point of time did you figure out life? Can there be something like that? lol. Maybe I should be patient and just follow the flow? Maybe everything makes sense a little later? Maybe I should keep on practicing surrendering and just chill the fuck out. Definitely, meditate more...
3 Month's left until I relocate back to Germany. I have a job there but I'm not really encouraged to do it. Perhaps I want to study once again or even do something else. I like forestry. Chances are that I move to Canada and study there? Or to the states? California? Redwood forest?