I can feel the depression coming.. Is it because of a compromised immune system? I don't know, it's been some time since I feel this feeling and frankly I don't like it. Maybe I should listen to more Billie Eilish or maybe I should stop.
All the sudden I got thinking about life and where I am and the point of living and you know that feeling when you realised you're just a human out of 7.6 Billion? All living on a rock floating around a star floating in a group of stars floating amongst other group of stars.. Then you realize you don't actually matter in the grand scheme of the universe.. And then you feel like crap emotionally.
I need this to stop, but I can't stop ignoring this existential crisis. I need to stop eating ice cream too.
Photo of a sunset I took with my crappy OPX phone in my hometown over the South China Sea.
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