i was 16 , when i got pregnant with my korean boyfriend . he gives me a lot of promises .. when i am 6 months pregnant he told me that he need to go back to korea to settle some things . so next time i can go there with him.. but since the day he left until now, i never heard about him. i never receive a messages from him. its really hard to wait for nothing, its really hard to be a single mom and the hardest aspect of being a single mother is that if your baby has health problems .
she's now 1 year and 6 months ..
I love her more than I ever thought possible, but when I started this parenting journey I never imagined doing it alone. I never expected to be a single parent .that moment when you finally break down and let the tears flow. Our lives are hard and we need a good cry every once in a while, but when I cry alone it just seems to magnify the fact that there is no one here to help me. I realize that it’s up to me and only me to pull myself back together and that I have no choice but to do so. There is no one there to help me.
The burden of knowing that I am the only person invested in my baby's future is a hard one to bear. it can feel very overwhelming and lonely.
there is nothing that feels worse than seeing my baby sad face and knowing that I can’t give her what she want.
Sometimes I wish I could just give her what she want, because as a parent, sometimes I simply just want to see her happy.
but i am so thankful to god , that he give me a reason to live. she is a reason why i need to be strong.
i know its really hard but i have to take my responsibility as a mother. i have to be strong .
thanks you so much for reading my fellow stemians !
hope you will upvote and follow me.. thank you ..
GODBLESS