I feel that my blood volume is just taking a toll to my heart, I could feel it in my blood pressure as my arteries and veins are just trying to explode. My nurses are to blame for this because this wasn't my normal state before because at least I do not feel this way before all because of the changes about my dialysis treatment that they ruined for me.
Now I am planning to transfer myself to a better dialysis center, the one which at least I hope will make me feel better than this current one which I am really disappointed now because of the nurse's incompetence. I am saying that because I am not like this with terrible nausea that is caused by a very low quality blood cleaning process.
The blood pump which is actually slow had been made to be slower from 250mL per minute to 200mL which is a terrible thing to be happening now and added to that the adjustment of another kilo of water weight to my body. I could not take it anymore so now my body is just screaming and crying with a mute voice and it is reflected on how I feel with my body.
I could not sleep now because of this fluid overload that I am experiencing. Add to the pain was my parents doesn't know and so dumb enough to know what is happening maybe due to their old age already which is another problem for me. I am telling them to inquire about dialysis center in the city near here from our town only to tell me that it is expensive to go there or they already have inquired.
It makes me furious and so angry but with fear and worry because of what I feel with my body which I wanted to get a solution but people around me is just being a big barrier on my way. Right now I am experiencing a nausea and breathlessness that is why I am still awake and I doubt that I can sleep but I will still try.
I also tried to perspire using my sauna suit in the hope that sweating would make me feel good but due to the cold air outside I wasn't able to so I took it off again and maybe will try tomorrow but at daytime. My goal was to let out at least a kilo of extra fluid from my body per day but I am not sure if I could do that..
