I am kind of disheartened because finishing my dialysis treatment is very important for me considering that I only get to be dialyzed twice per week and then tragedies such as no finishing my session occurs even though I really am trying my best using different measures and experiments under the Sun just for me to survive my dialysis and complete it and yet time and time again it just fails to complete.
I really do not know what is the factor now that lead to my blood pressure to crash. It just happened all of a sudden where my vision had started to blacken already and my insides to churn about. A few more minutes and I will really soiled my pants which is why with a frustrated heart I just have to call my nurses which almost automatically stopped the treatment considering that I still have more half an hour to go before the appointed termination time and yet they are swift to just stop it.
My only hope to get the best possible treatment was to go more frequently for my dialysis. I am still thinking about it though because it is not as easy as it sounds because I am dragging my two elderly parents in the process whenever I go now for my dialysis plus I have to consider their time and of course the additional money that I have to spend for an added session days.
So wherever I would turn my head there is always a compromise like money, time, and effort. That is why I am also thinking about an another type of dialysis but that also has some disadvantages like more work everyday as you would have to clean the tubing on your belly in a regular basis, the risk of its infection, its inconvenience, getting a check-up every month, going to the city in the capital Manila to get supplies maybe every two weeks, plus I also am not sure if I am okay with that kind of dialysis because I have to put about two liters of dialysate solution three times daily.
The latter could be nit an issue but because I have a limited amount of room for my body to load up fluids it can get maybe difficult for me.
So I am just a walking complication like my life is and I am hoping that I could come-up with a best possible solution for my problem so that I can get to experience an easement to my unfortunate prodigal and hard life.