Trigger Warning: Suicide, shitty post
So right out of the darker corner of my soul, bring you this half thought out post. Don't ask what drove me to post such a thing. But do ask why aren't you posting about it.
The answer to that latter being you happen to be somewhat of a decent person who observes laws and societal taboos. Congratulations, you're not a nihilist, and maybe that meanings something but we're not going to be talking about that. There's enough common decency going around and I don't want any of it because I can't make jokes with out violating societal contracts.
A suicidal thought is a hell of a thing, like a depressive DMT experience that punctuates the sheer pointlessness of your life and you have a philosophical duty to fulfill and carry through that salient mission... because, you know, "everyone and everything would be better without you", right?
And it is here that you have missed the total point of it all, my friend.
Once you fool yourself into thinking that this will make everything better for everyone, you play a narcissistic game that will make you chicken out or at worst, make your problem everyone's problem and we don't want any of that. Why would you want to place the kind of shitty burden on anyone?
Rather leave the ones you love with the gift of a definite philosophical statement, the sight of your cold body. Your final and greatest "fuck you" to the turd storm called life and all it's garbage.
This is the greatest kept secret. You win in life when you kill yourself.