Most of what you have read here is inspired by Alan Watts, in particular, the book, The Wisdom Of Insecurity. It is also inspired by years of improvisation class and stand up comedy I performed myself. So I've been agnostic about everything for at least a decade.
Oh, and another chunk of inspiration comes from my study of quantum mechanics, a science of probability, not certainty.
What are you inspired by? And what is your apology for?
RE: I don't know, a sort of philosophy