As you can see in the above photo, I have already packed all the bags that I am going to bring to the hospital tomorrow. (Nine hours from now as I'm typing this.) John (my dear husband) and I must arrive at the hospital at 7:30 in the morning for the scheduled delivery via Caesarian section at 8:30 AM. I don't know if I'll be able to sleep tonight as I'm really excited and anxious at the same time. After posting this, I will set my alarm so I'll wake up at 6:30 AM to get ready and then that's it, the most awaited moment my life. I will finally meet and hug and kiss my precious little boy!!!
My pregnancy journey has been amazing. God has been faithful to me all my life and I thank Him for blessing me with such a beautiful miracle. I have never thought I'd come this far, I thought it was going to be easy. Get married and have a family. But little did I know that starting a family, you know, conceiving and getting pregnant, was not an easy feat. Every month, every year I was just waiting. I'd always say, maybe it's not yet the time. I just kept the faith. I put my hope and trust in God that He knows when the perfect time would be.
We did resort to seeking help with a fertility specialist, but it didn't mean we lost our faith in God. I just trust that God has gifted these doctors and specialists with wisdom, knowledge and intellect to help those people like us struggling with fertility issues. Just like oncologists are there to help the cancer patients, too. Also, dermatologists and plastic surgeons can help those who suffered from severe burn injuries, for example. At the end of the day, if it is really God's will for an IVF treatment to be successful, then He will make it happen. It's still in His hands.
And indeed, God has answered my prayers. He granted my heart's desires. And I thank the Lord Jesus Christ. I got pregnant nine months ago with the help of the IVF procedure, and tomorrow is the day I'm going to give birth to my firstborn child. A BOY!!! What more could I ask for? It has always been in my heart that if I ever will have a child, I've always wanted a boy as my firstborn child. God answered that specific prayer, too. How awesome God is!!! He is such a good, good God!!!
As I said, my pregnancy journey has been nothing, but wonderful and amazing! I've never had a problem like constant vomiting, nausea, or anything like that. My whole pregnancy has been very smooth. It was just only the last two or three weeks that I have felt so uncomfortable, but that's because my belly is just getting bigger. Gravity plays a major role in this situation. Haha!!! Yes, I blame gravity! It's hard for me to walk or stand for long periods of time. I've had lower back pain. I sometimes feel like I have hip or leg pain. But they're all normal part of pregnancy. And I'm not complaining at all!
I love that I have actually experienced all these things. You see, I've even dodged the excruciating labour pain and contractions and natural birth, although I was also prepared to experience that. However, with my baby's condition, he is in breech position and there's no space for him anymore to move and turn inside my uterus, the Obstetrician scheduled for a Caesarian section operation instead. Still, after that operation, I will be in so much pain, for sure, and it will take a while to recover from that, I've been told.
But I just can't wait for my baby to be born. I think I'm at this point now where I'm over the pregnancy thing, and I just want to give birth, as in right now. I'm happy and grateful that God has let me experience all these things, the ups and downs, the whole pregnancy journey before I begin the next chapter of my life. That is MOTHERHOOD. And I say, bring it on!!! I really can't wait anymore!!! I am so excited to meet my John Junior (hahaha!!! that's not going to be my baby's name, but some Uptrennd University students - they know who they are - already nicknamed my baby, JJ.)
Speaking of Uptrennd University, I would like to thank this opportunity to thank all of you, STAFF and BETA TEAM, for giving me a VIRTUAL BABY SHOWER last night. Thank you so much for your love, prayers and well-wishes, for all the beautiful words, letters and poems, for taking the time to congratulate me and flood the platform with all your posts (bearing my photos). YOU surprised me BIG TIME!!! All the while I was engaging with some of them in the comments section, as I just had posted a freewrite then, they were already planning something beautiful for me.
I told them they were so sneaky... they talked behind my back, but in such a good way, that I was overwhelmed with so much joy and happiness that I cried so much reading everyone's posts and commenting on each one of them. I have found friends in all of you and I consider you all my family. Your friendship means so much to me and I just love you all so much!!! I can't wait to share with you the good news. I can't wait to update you with some baby photos and to show you how cute and gorgeous my baby is.
I also want to thank the rest of the Uptrennd community for congratulating me as well and sending me your prayers and love as you read their posts about my upcoming delivery. Thank you for your kind and beautiful words. I really appreciate each one of you.
Lastly, thank you TIGER LILY. It's you that actually made it happen. Like I said, YOU ARE ALWAYS FULL OF SURPRISES. You have no idea how happy you have made me. Thank you for your love, support and encouragement. I love you, my dear friend and now my big sister! My baby boy will want a cuddle and snuggle from his Auntie Tiger.
I'm really sorry for the long post. I'm just happy right now, and the words just kept flowing through my head, I have to type them. But I have to try to get some sleep soon. Tomorrow is going to be a big day for me. Please do keep me in your prayers. Thank you and I will still be thinking of you, MY UPTRENND FAMILY, while I focus on my own family. I love you guys!!!
P.S. Today, John and I went to a fish and chips shop and went for a drive to the beach and ate our food inside the car. We both had SQUIDS, CHIPS AND SALAD for lunch!!! Today was actually our last day as a couple. Tomorrow we will have our bundle of joy!!!
