Ever since I can remember, I’ve wanted to save everyone and everything. I feel other’s emotions, suffering, joy and just want to make things better. I’ve come to realise though, not everyone can be saved.
There is a person in my life right now that, despite my better judgement, I reached out to after seeing them upset. I’ve supported them, given them advice and all it’s achieved is me feeling drained.
At the end of the day, anything that costs you your own peace isn’t worth it and sadly, this person isn’t worth it. They don’t want to or aren’t ready to save themselves.
Doesn’t change who I am and that I want to help people, I think I’ll always have that in me but as for this person, it’s time to walk away. That in itself is a massive change for me and shows I’ve started to value myself above all else, something I haven’t always done for fear of being selfish. It’s a different kind of selfish though and definitely necessary.
So to this person, I wish nothing them but the best and will more than likely still be there when they decide they’re ready, but for now I’m stepping back and focusing on me.