I should count how many times I want to leave my job, stop flying in the sky. Probably it is not enough even I borrow others’ fingers and toes. Jet-lag,unreasonable flying schedules and physical sickness bring me only exhaustion and different conditions of injury. More than that, losing connection with family, having unstable relationship and losing personal life. Then I ask myself why I choose this job and gave up a well-paid job in the very beginning?The answer comes up quickly every time. I LOVE FLYING IN THE SKY.
Last night I spent some time to talk to myself. I could feel the desire that I need to overcome my egos and shadows of my life goal, relationship and weaknesses. The most important thing is getting back my happiness,passion and freedom.I turned on the computer and looked at the old photos I took when I was flying to somewhere. Tears came out and couldn't stop. I miss the old time, and I miss the old me too, the one who loved her life so much. That girl always put her smile on her face and believed life and people are beautiful. Now, this girl is lost and cannot find the way out.
What can make me feel better every time is to look up to the sky, the beautiful gift from our mother Earth. How much energy you can receive from this amazing and powerful sky? A Lot. It reminds me the time me and my boyfriend always drove all the way to Wreck Beach in UBC for watching the amazing sunset in silence this summer. Such a great and relaxing time we had ever. For sure because of my job, I have a great chance to see different kinds of phenomenon in the sky - see the incredible northern light outside from the aircraft, see how the snow makes a place become 'white city', and feel how close I am to the sun. This beautiful yet unpredictable sky make me speechless, but at the same time she is sending me positive energy flowing within my body.
(Captured it when flying back to Hong Kong from United States)
I should believe how much l still want to fly in the sky with freedom and continue seeing how beautiful the world is. Free myself and let go of all the burdens and lies. Never forget the original aspiration of my life. Just love myself. How my life goes actually is not related to my family, my partner and friends. All from ME.
Much Love to all of you,
Gladys
