I always think what's going on with life, get it right
After the day is done I think for awhile. Process the daily progress. I'm getting along, getting more into it. Tomorrow will be another day of some work. Will have to get up fairly early. Hopefully this time it will be a half day. I'm raring to go for the creativity, see what I can pull off! See what I can learn. I want to get to the big think crunch time. Express out all the saying that have been building up in some new formulas.
I have been on the edge, an outsider. If I hadn't banded together with a few people who are family and family like I would have been more like everyone else. Would have resigned. Resigned and given into the culture and the whims of other people. I've liked being an outsider, it's not the same as being on the sidelines. Here I can ride the edge of sarcasm right into the cosm. Much of it seems plain as day yet there are more mysterious parts. I want my full energy there to be lucid, to speak without the possibility of misunderstanding. I know I would go on for days to people writing them messages yet they did not seem to want to understand or form a bond. Now I take my electric thoughts and ideas and put them out there. I can keep forming them into arts.
In the last days the stress is shifting, the moods are getting swifty. The whole isolated area in the arena where no one has time for themselves or each other. Imagine a different paradigmed world. I can flash to it in myself. I can get more expressive in the art of the explanation via varying mediums. All the trivialities can subside. A more noble focus, not the distracted running away from your self woes. To be able to feel supported enough and or okay with being alone enough to figure a miss deed misconstrued. You can forgive yourself for being an idiot by giving yourself the proper due. You can give others the proper recognition too. Instead of being put off by the cognits of confusion believing every story you tell yourself. Be a horse whisperer to yourself.
Oh I see why I am up late and going on tonight! It's a full moon!! Am getting sleepy now though. Gotta go take a shower before bed. Good to do after working for a proper rest. I am confident I can further articulate and organize my thoughts. Get life happening. I will focus on the good sleep tonight. Looking forward to having an adventure with myself tomorrow if I can.
