I have dreamed of a wedding where I am walked by my father to the aisle on my wedding day, walking slowly to the hand of a man that will love and be patient with all my bad sides. I believe every girl will want this too. Who doesn't?
The only difference will be that some will make their dream come true, some might not and some might not get the chance. Some will make their dream last forever, some might only get it on that day, some experienced it for a while and some might still wish for the day to come. Perhaps some might not even want the day to come.
I got mine for a few years and now it is ended. It felt disastrous at first, but then, things eventually cleared out. Staying will not improve my life. Most importantly, it is not my life that I need to think of but my daughter's. She deserves a lot more than me. She is the one that gives me the strength to go on. I bet almost all mothers will say the same thing about their children. In short, I can say that I am a bit lonelier in terms of wanting to be loved and cared for but overall life is still good. Sometimes I wonder if I do not deserve to have a partner in this life because I am not gentle enough as a woman and I am not the type to pamper myself like other women do. I can do the most job that men do and I have the ego like a man. I want to be equal to a man and I am reluctant to be obedient sometimes.
In conclusion of mine, I am perhaps a woman that has her own perspective other than being the dream wife a man wishes for. In the end, this attitude of mine leads me to the life that I have now. Honestly, it is not that bad after some time. Being a single mother is not that bad and it is better than having a husband but we live like single mothers. Salutation to all the single parents out there. Not only the single mothers but also all those single fathers.
There will be moments when we wish that we do not have to stand up again after a fall, but once we hear the cries of our children, our bodies will move on their own. The only thing we need to do is follow the strength that our children gave us. We will not be able to see our chances by lying down on the floor. Stand up and look forward, there will be a lot more in front than all those that we have left behind.
