How has 'calmness' existed within and as a polarized word that we use as a band-aide to hide, cover up and suppress its polarity opposite existent within ourselves?
What is the polarity opposite of calmness? The design in everyone would be the same, but the details of that design will be as unique as we are from one-another.
For me, the opposite of calm is panic - meaning, I look for calm and use calm to cover up, hide, suppress and balance out the panic I feel in moments in my life.
How? By using calm as an experience instead of a living application: There is a difference between feeling calm and being calm.
How is this experience created? Through memories, thoughts, projections and imaginations.
For me, calm is derived from my experience of being on vacation on a beach, where I am 'away': away from home, from reality, from the reality of home which means responsibility and obligations. Being on vacation is a false calm because it is an escape from day-to-day life. For me it is the precise moment where I am on the beach, I feel the hot sun and I know that I have nowhere else to be and nothing else to do but relax, maybe fall asleep, maybe just listen to the birds, the people, the waves. It is a moment of blissful calm and serenity.
I tend to bring up this experience when I feel panic. But this 'calm' is an experience; a feeling, a plaster that I plaster on top of the panic and change my feelings from panic energy to calm energy, without actually working through anything or stopping the cycle.
The feeling experience rather than the living application of 'calm' simply allows for the perpetuation of the cycle, a cycle that becomes tiring and old if one is aware enough to observe it - repeating over and over and over for years and then decades until death.
UNLESS we put a stop to it by actually re-defining calm in a depolarized way of living.
Positive polarity:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define 'calm' within and as memories, experiences, projections and imaginations from my past where I had created positive energetic experiences in moments of escape from my normal day-to-day living and experience.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live the word 'calm' as an escape in the form of a 'good feeling' that I could bring up to replace and cover up the 'bad feeling' that I would have created as a result of ineffective living creating consequence in my life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use 'calm' as an experience instead of living it to actually stabilize myself for real, in order to connect with myself, forge a connection with myself to create space and a place from which I can then direct myself to take steps to walk myself out of the panic and negative energetic experience in awareness, through facing it, looking at it and seeing, realizing and understanding why and how I created it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to relish and indulge in the positive experience I had created of the word 'calm', almost like an intoxication to escape from reality in moments that I do not want to face.
When and as I see that I am using the experience of 'calm' as a plaster and a band-aide to hide from, cover up and suppress negative emotions going on inside myself, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to common sense by reminding myself that I cannot and will not continue to hide, escape and suppress myself because I see, realize and understand that this simply continues and perpetuates the constant cycle of ups and downs, wherein feeding the 'calm' experience sets me up to also feed the panic.
I commit myself to stop the cycles of calm and panic existent within and as me, through stopping my participation within and as the positive energetic experience of feeling 'calm'.
This process will eventually lead back to the creation of 'certainty' that I was seeking in my last blog. Bear with me for this one, it will take a few steps, but it WILL lead back to where I was heading!
Previous post: https://steemit.com/life/@kimzilla/does-certainty-exist
This is where learned this application: https://eqafe.com/p/the-crucifixion-of-jesus-part-43