I am sad for the loss of those dear to you. :c/
As a society we have a lot to learn about fundamental compassion.
At the risk of seeming self-promoting, I would suggest that any who have a friend that they are worried about - or who themselves are in a dark place - take a look through and/or send on a post that I once wrote.
May both the fallen and those for whom the precipice is in sight (or for whom the clouds simply blot out the sun) find the peace that they need.
RE: It's Been Almost Two Years