As I feel a little uninspired on the blogging front lately, I felt I had to try something new. So, instead of forcing myself to write another movie recommendation or to post pretty pictures of Spain and talk about my travels, I'm doing something else today.
Sure, I could easily recommend the movie that this GIF is referring to, a film that I talked about a couple of times before, months ago. But, instead, I will use it as a metaphor for how I feel these days:
All work and no Play makes Vincent a Dull Boy
I don't wanna complain. I'm traveling, I'm being my own boss. I'm making my money writing on stuff that I like to write about.
Working 7 days a Week
For a lot of people, it would seem like I'm not working. Like I'm on a holiday, being in Spain and all. But, it doesn't feel that way to me. It hasn't felt like that in a long time. Even when I lived on The Canary Islands for half a year (september 2016 to March 2017), I was working on a movie back then. A film that I never finished, but that was in the back of my mind every single day.
Thinking about it, I often get the feeling that people think I'm doing little (not having a 9 to 5 job, making little money, 'just' blogging) and I seem to want to proof the opposite. I want to show them that they're wrong. But, at the same time, I wanna do the opposite. Can I please be 'lazy' every now and then and not feel guilty about it?
Working Less
Two days ago, in the train, on my way two Ronda, I talked to a German couple. At a certain point in the conversation, we got to talk about the movie that this guy wanted to make in the near future on the island La Gomera. Yeah, he also wants to make a movie on one of the Canary Islands. He said that it would be a fiction movie, telling the story of hippie children, who reach a point in their life where they have to decide whether they stay on the island and keep doing 'nothing' or leave the island to start living another kind of life.
I found that fascinating to hear, because I can't help but feeling that I want to be like these hippie children. I got this strong urge to live on an island and live a life doing fewer things. Just the basic stuff you need to do to survive, without feeling guilty about it. But, can I really do that? Can we? Why do we always have the urge to do so many things?
Playing More
I realize that I wanna play more. I wanna be like the kid inside of me. The kid that feels caged most of the time. It's time to approach things in a more playful way. Work or no work. So let's see what I can do about that.
As I started meditating again a week or so ago and I'm trying to be more and more mindful, I just realized that I could navigate this playful part inside of me. Why couldn't I make it a topic in my daily meditation sessions, a point of focus. I am curious where that will lead to. No matter what, I will do my best to keep you updated on my inner and outer journey.
I hope you stick with me. And if you don't, I wish you enjoy your own personal journey, wherever it takes you. Just remember, the process is more important than the destination. So make sure you enjoy the process as much as possible.
FADE OUT
The above picture is my inner creature, a forest fish, designed by the lovely @ryivhnn To read more about that, here's the full post, including a process video of the making of this beautiful image.