It began when I closed my eyes, I awoke to a strange new world. I was confused with what I was seeing, it was like reality but I could notice small differences. My vision would be 2 different things either a magnificent brightness of details and color or a cloudy blur of disorientation. I remember going crazy trying to make sense of what this all meant. Why this experience was so vivid to me and when I tried to share it with others, no one could relate. My mind began to go through a renaissance of connections as I matured at a very young age. I could see ideas that were not created in this world and I did not know where they were coming from. Someone greater than I must be connecting with me but who?
I devised a voice within my mind that would speak and through feelings I would know if it was me or this other person. He understood more and I could always rely on him when I felt like I could not handle things on my own. I began to see the bigger picture of things and lived my life towards my future even as a child. I knew that one day I would reach certain points and it was not by chance but by work.
At this same time my dreams began to intensify. I awoke one day to be lying in bed without the ability to move. My eyes jolted from side to side as I could see the room around me. It was dark and I could feel other beings within the same room I was in. This would not be my only experience but the beginning of many. I saw many different things from shadow beings, to beings of light and also beings that could physically touch me. I call them beings because they did not look like you and me but shadow figures, distorted people or imagined creations of my mind. One emotion which was heightened during these experiences was fear. Without being able to move like I did when I was awake, fear overtook me. I fought these feelings like I fought anything that came before it. I told myself “I am control, I hold the power of anything that happens within my mind”. As I fought it I would shake, my body would move as it did while I was awake. I could feel my fingers twitch, my shoulders jerk and my mouth tried to speak but only gibberish came out. Then one day I popped out.
To my surprise I could see my body lying in bed. Where was I? And how could I be conscious without my body? I felt so free and as though my power had returned. I noticed that I was levitating above the ground but this method of movement felt so familiar to me. I could fly and as I focused towards a certain place in the room, my chest would move first then my body would follow in that direction. I have never flown physically in this reality so why was it so easy in this other place? I could see the world in a different way and it felt like my mind was functioning at a much faster rate.
I became addicted to this freedom from my body. I found myself completing my daily responsibilities and forcing myself to sleep, as long and as often as I could. It was all in the hopes that I could leave my body and receive that freedom once again. For a short phase in my upbringing I felt insane. I resided in 2 realities maybe even 3. The physical world (1) the shadow realm (2) and the bright detailed freedom known as the astral plain (3). I felt limited in this physical reality but I was free in the other 2. It wasn’t until I received information to bring back that I wanted to be awake. You cannot receive information without putting forth action from that information. For if you do not act on information then you never deserved to receive it in the first place.
Have you ever questioned if the person you are is the brain that you have? If we damage your brain would it change the internal person? By physically changing the tangible would the inner self change? This becomes more complicated when we take a look at people with mind altering conditions. The deterioration of the brain may cause a person to seem as though they are lost. They may not recognize you or they may forget little things that can be life threatening. So are you and your physical brain the same person?
I think not and may I challenge this misconception through something I came across? Alzheimer’s is a condition that effects many of the elderly where they lose connections within their mind. It can be very detrimental that they may not be able to recognize their own children. What can we do about these issues and how can we make sense of all this? What if I told you that music can bring these connections back? I watched a documentary that shared this concept and proved how you could bring back the elderly with music they enjoyed in their lifetime. The self was somewhere within and the physical mind had just created a wall to their self-expression.
I am more than this body and I can reside in multiple realities. Who is to say a dream isn’t real when you have experienced it just like a physical experience. I have learned and I have applied knowledge from my dreams to this reality. The value I give to each reality is the same. My dream is not only a memory but a new experience and at times it can be deja vu.
In my search through my mind I found myself. For some reason he was far more advanced than my present self. When I connected the dots he was always the one I had spoken with. When I could not do things on my own, my future self could do it and he helped me up. All the answers I ever needed I had and I just needed to come to this realization. No information is new information but a reminder of something you already know. You are the universe through the window of your own ego. You are infinity and you bring the future to the present through this awareness and action. With this mind set you can do all things and learn any concept you come across. Exceed your physical limits by tapping into this eternal self and you may be surprised how much you’ll grow. You are worth it, you deserve it and only you can decide to walk into enlightenment.