I came across a video of a man sexually molesting a female toddler. And I honestly have been in a bad state all day because of that video. I cried for a long time and really could not work anymore because I was bewildered to say the least.
How the hell is anyone sexually attracted to a child or an infant? I mean, how??? Why??? I'm still lost in a warp. I truly couldn't work anymore because my head is fuzzy... I feel like someone stuffed cobwebs up there.
So someone can look at a child and say, "Wow. She/he looks hot!" For real? Nia/Bih, for real?! Are you kidding me? Omg! I'm disgusted. I'm angry. I'm sad. I'm confused. But the most worrisome feeling I have is fear. Yes, fear! Because the world is going really bad and new babies are being born into this rotting world...
I'm gonna get married and at some inevitable point I'd have to enrol my children in school, leaving them in the care of strangers i.e. teachers and caregivers. And also be leaving them at the mercy of other children, children whose upbringings and personalities I can't vouch for.
A male friend of mine attended Maritime Academy in Oron and he told me how he was almost raped by senior male students. I attended Federal Government Girls' College, Abuloma briefly and Lawd! we had occurrences of female-on-female student molestation. Then I've asked a lot of men how they got introduced to sex and the stories have almost the same ring to them. Predators are usually the maid, relative or family friend and the age of molestation ranges from 5 years to 12 years. I won't even talk about females because this video did a number on my psyche...
My Goodness! I'm scared! This world is not getting any better. I know these things have always existed but it seems like they're on the increase or maybe social media is just bringing them to light. I'm truly scared...
How do we protect our children and for how long can we protect them? There are predators everywhere: Home, school, church etc and these predators come in both genders and in different ages. I've seen an 8 year old boy try to molest a 5 year old girl. I've heard of fathers molesting their children, male and female. I've seen mothers give their children as sex slaves to high payers...
When and where would all these end? I know I'm worrying your timelines but I gotta get this off my chest because it's killing me... How do we protect our children? This is what I want to know because this video I watched today gave me the worst kind of shivers. Shivers I never felt even when I was in Amai village and things used to go "bump in the night". I truly know what fear is now.
I'm scared shitless... I really am...