‘IF MULTIVERSE IS REAL, I HOPE MY OTHER SELF IS HAPPY’

‘IF MULTIVERSE IS REAL, I HOPE MY OTHER SELF IS HAPPY’

Lately, I've been struggling really hard. Focusing on something important has become my hardest struggle. I keep think the "what ifs" and end up lying in my bed, overthinking. Problems keeps piling that my anxiety won't lie low. I keep trying to make things work but I keep failing. I feel so disappointed with myself lately. I'm becoming the person that I never wish to be. I'm stuck with being miserable in life and I don't know how to get out from the dark. I don't have the strength to fight for my silent battles and I feel like all my hopes are gone now. I know that I should've been someone better by now, but here I am— still trying to fix my ruined life and still trying to survive a day that's full of misery.

Sometimes, I just want to scream all my pain away. I want to just disappear. I badly want to never wake-up again. There are times where I'm forcing to fix myself but I know it's not enough. Everything I do is not enough to make me feel okay. I'm tired, I don't wanna pretend anymore that there is nothing wrong about me. Because the truth is, everything feels like falling apart. Everything hurts indefinitely.

If multi universe is real, I hope I am happy. If not, I hope I am determined to be happy.