This was written 10/11/2018 It is pieced together from texts I sent to myself starting at 6:08 P.M.
Garbage cans are people too
I am Eyedea, I am Lil Wyte, I am Jim Morrison,
I am this garbage can
Don’t forget the Beatles
Just don’t forget them
Peoples’ delusions and illusions are always more comforting
“The comfort zone.”
More comforting to them at least
Not always to the delusions of others
I’m definitely beside myself
Whatever those two things see
I don’t scream anymore
If I encounter those “aggressive” coyotes
then it’s time to let out a roar
As long as you have love in your heart anything is possible
I need a brand new friend who doesn’t bother me
Hyacinth House
The reality of all of this is too much
I would rather slip back into my sunglass-coated world
My sunglass-coated realm
I saw the deer
I’m turning around because I don’t want to alienate them
This is their home
See I do have balls. Lots of balls.
I found a golf ball.
I wear my sunglasses at night.
They protect me from the evils seen and unseen.
But I’ve gotta get the best of both worlds.
Glasses and no glasses.
I just realized this isn’t my # anymore that I’m texting to
Sorry for the inconvenience if that was you
Now this is me
Out here in the woods
This is my soul
No evil just love
But it’s polluted by the things I let get in
I could blame the establishment
But really it is my fault
That bunny rabbit tripped me out
It sucks when you force the wrong people out of your life
And stay close to the ones you long to get rid of
Not in a bad way.
Not actually get rid of them.
Banishment will suffice.
I am the king of my own existence
Now is not the time to ask her
If she’ll be my friend again
It’s no biggie
That I texted the wrong number
It has no power over me
I shall plunge into the depths of the unknown
Here goes nothing
I know it is infinite consciousness speaking to me!
It says don’t kill yourself.
You’ll be lucky if you survive the path directly in front of you
The beasts await you on the trail.
You’ll be lucky
Immensely invaluable
Priceless
Peeing is so funny
It’s like we all have to let some things go
I must tread ever so lightly
This is their home
I just thought Jim Morrison was a coyote
Time to defect perhaps or shall I forge ahead?
It’s dark, but it aint 10 baby!
The soul of the entire planet is speaking to me!
Is that a space ship?
Maybe they really will take me away?
It’s a long journey back, but I shall make it!
I want to play on my terms though NOT THEIRS!
There is a bright blue eye in the sky!
Where did it go?
Now there’s two of them and they love me
Or hate me
I forgot what the difference was
It will get darker just not any lighter
That’s the decoy car watch out!
It’s like Road Warrior down here watch out!
“I see that the bathroom is near.” - Jim Morrison
My mind and soul are both stronger than my body.
Shhhh. It’s a secret!
Urination is a necessary release of toxins
It should not be illegal,
But you should do it away from other people to be polite
Yeah! For America goddamit! Wooh!
The abyss is so beautiful in this blackness of night
Lake Michigan is so gorgeous night or day
I am not invincible
But I damn well will try to be
Just like you
My most gorgeous
See poets do have to think outside the box
For we are ephemeral yet this lake seems eternal
But is it really?
It is no more eternal than the trees
It just lives forever
Enough texting myself right now
This is stealing the beauty of the moment
And it is a long journey back!
The authorities are all an illusion!
It is just so easy to see right now.
They are not capable of governing my life.
Only I can pass on the torch.
This lake is so big, but I do not feel small!
Echelon reads my poetry
But for some reason you hate it
I don’t get it?
These text messages are not really real.
Or are they?
Yeah fuck autocorrect. I said it.
Sometimes I think my Dad’s right about these people following him
But would that mean that they’re following me?
Here come the men in black?
All I know is that these fuckers in their big trucks sure as hell aren’t personable,
But they sure as hell are American goddamit!
And now I shall start my journey back the other fucking way
Wish me luck
Or maybe not
It’s so gorgeous out here and I haven’t really gotten to enjoy it.
I’ve been doing this the whole time
Massaging my ego with words
That ‘Merica comment
Now that was my vengeance
For those fuckers not giving me a ride
Previously in the pouring rain
I’m just staring at the lake ‘cause I think it’s beautiful
Just like way back when
But these men’s egos
Just won’t let me alone
But the lake she’s a beaut!
So fuck their egos and fuck the one I once had too!
It is but illusion
Just like all of you.
They could snipe me real easy
But it appears they let me live?
This must indeed mean
That I’ve so much more to give!
To humanity to reality before I suffer the F-word
Fatality
And I cannot blame you for my calamity
Just know I am pure love
Just know that is me
It’s time to start my journey back
With love
Look at the calm look at the waves
The lake tells me how I should behave
T.I.F.
That MF is honking their horn loud as hell.
It’s totally black out right now
And I’m heading my way back
All I feel is love
In the blackness of night
So pray for me but I know
I will be alright
Just alright and it doesn’t bother me
I can’t even see
But fuck turnin’ the light on
This is what it takes for words to ignite on
OK maybe I do need the light on
I’m not lonely just because I’m texting myself
You fucking pricks!
If I see aggressive coyotes I will scream while I pepper spray them
There you go with that FEAR again
They are your brethren!
Here’s man’s law
Get him he’s a plant! Get him he’s a plant!
Pretty fucking ridiculous hey?
Those lights are bright as fuck dude!
I don’t need mine anymore
Or so it seems
What if that’s a cop up there?
To put it frankly I don’t care!
There is absolutely nothing wrong
With laughing hysterically at a lamp post
Now that one’s bright
This one’s kind of dull even for being a light!
Hope for the best prepare for the worst!
Such an understatement!
I guess they actually have some ethics.
Just not tangible ones.
Wow it’s a marvel that they can make them that bright.
Hello Mr. Street light!
OMW back
No I shouldn’t kick over that garbage can
Be civil!
Garbage cans are people too!
So here’s the fork in the road.
Which way to go?
Heads=Left Tails=Right
But I can’t see it without my flashlight
I am required to be my own private eye
So please excuse me while I kiss the sky
I better get the fuck outta here now outta here now outta here now!
A new day has dawned
Stop. Think. Realize.
You have been part of your own negative feedback loop