This is also a poem I made in the past

Life is unnecessary, my happiness is Just an Illusion I wear a mask to hide my confusion. I'm tired of hiding so I start to yell for help, but nothing changed.

Don't you think it is strange, am i supposed to be an actor? I can't control my emotions, I'm not an actor, but a character on this stage.

Nothing matters anymore, my happiness is a forgery.
I wanted you to be happy, but I'm unable to be happy myself.

I keep lying every day hoping that someone will see through me, but I am a professional at hiding who I am. Why do I destroy myself constantly?

I'm now at the point where I can't even control who I am.
I'm constantly sad, tired and angry, but I don't know what to do anymore.
Is this me waging war?

I want someone to help me, but I keep refusing the opportunity to be saved because I am addicted to my own pain, forsaking my own name, taking the blame.

Human beings are nothing but animals to nature, we only wanted to survive at the beginning of all things.

Love is unnecessary, but I long for it, but it not the love that I desire, but the happiness that comes with it.

I'm the only one who will not be happy.

Beyonce wanted to be happy, that all she ever wanted.

Was there ever something wrong with it? To live a fulfilled life...

So far I can only sharpen this broken knife, so break me and do this and drop the axe.

Last sound I'll will hear is a slash.

© Joshua Jeffries, aka afoolzluck
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8/27/19