We’re all “creatures of habit”. Men are dogs, you eat like a pig, you’re a snake. That’s for the birds, don’t have a cow, spare me your crocodile tears.
The allusion to animals in reference to people goes on and on. People have moved this way beyond record. So as Thoreau wrote that life can’t be called such without a connection to Nature, I write that one can’t live life without understanding their own.
I guess it connects to yesterday’s thoughts about recording one’s thoughts to create a mind frame. I didn’t spend any time doing that yesterday, because I wanted to play. And I did. I also find that it’s difficult for me to dive deeper into a subject I’ve only just thought about. It’s the relationship between student and child within me. I believe in play, confidence and fun. I also believe in study, findings and experiments. I find a lot of people enjoy the theory of certain subjects but don’t go further. I know myself to be a hedonist, exploring good feelings and good times over focusing on real issues. So I write. At least in these words, I can’t lie to anyone but myself. I read them later, but save for spelling mistakes when I type, I vent. I reveal. I walk like on a treadmill, step after step, moving in a direction, even if I’m in one place.
I think the biggest thing I see about my 2 years of thoughts so far, are how many I’ve had. I’ve spoke on so much, and thought about more, to only have about 300 or so different posts from each year. It’s a lot but not at the same time. The other thing I feel very strongly about is how many things I’ve suggested or planned, compared to how much is done. So in response, I’ve had a wonderful idea for this year. Each month I dedicate to a project. This way I can validate all my own thinking, growing with what works and trimming what doesn’t.
I only explored this method of development because I shared what I’ve done in a chat with some folks. A coder replies they built a similar system based on root and tree. I also spoke with my West coast buddy who worked in tech, and he validated the idea.
For the rest of January, I could organize my thoughts from the past years and beginning February, tackle an overarching idea from it each month! I think it’s exciting, mainly because it’s all my ideas, my dreams, campaigns I wanted to crusade, and things I never made. This is how I interpret a connection to Nature. In a lot of people, I recognize aspects I once felt insecure about with regards to myself. I’m sure, I’ve shown my insecurities to others in how I behave. They’re not bad, my flaws, but the same way a cat grooms itself often, I can clean myself up with nothing but my own two hands and a pen.
I think I haven’t realized just how I could use the tools I have until I explored them with others as well.