As this year soon comes to an end, I choose to reflect on where I have been and where I am at now. My kids are all no longer babies and my spouse is no longer my spouse. I am no longer severely depressed. In the beginning of the year, we were homeless, escaping poverty, amongst other things. I was able to seek professional analysis in the middle of this year and have expanded my self awareness. This was very important in my development into who I am now. I was able to reach out to people who were able to expand on the tools I acquired in therapy and in return I expanded my awareness even more. I wasn't able to change everything about me. The things I didn't fully understand or fully explored remained the same such as my anger. Presently, I am aware of where my anger comes from and have been able to expand my emotional intelligence enough to awaken to my own bullshit.
So, that's where I am at, mentally. Lately, my thoughts and creative thinking has been feeling cloudy, signaling me to keep questioning and searching for what needs my attention. Believe it or not most of my friends help me without really doing it directly. I just look at their latest posts here on steemit which are extremely intuitive! After digesting yet another one of @paps posts, I was able to connect the dots. I believe the key to my self improvement was being able to connect the dots as I reflected on my previous paths, while opening myself up to new information. If energy flows where attention goes and you pay attention to where you've been and where you're going, there's no stopping you from where you want to be. Just make sure you do connect the dots. If you are struggling with this, what are you afraid of? Darkness only leaves once you turn on a light. Therefore, if you come across darkness, you know what you need. The only way to find your way through the dark is to reach out.
Namaste
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