Greetings everyone. I hope you're all doing good. There are many things that make me sad. Sadness would often come to visit me. Sometimes stay for a while and leaves a hole before leaving. There were times when it will just say hello and disappeared. Either way, I don't like this feeling.
Just the thought that I'm away from my family and I missed a lot of important occasions makes me sad.
Just watching my neighbors moving out makes me sad. Thinking I wouldn't see them again. I have neighbor here that I always smile to everytime I see her through the window. She would often wave and smile back. When I saw her downstairs and she told me they are moving out, it makes me sad. Now the unit they once occupied is still empty and dark. When ever I glanced at it especially at night and it was dark, I can't help but feel sad.
When I don't have enough money I also feel sad.😣 Thinking about the expenses and bills that I need to pay. I cannot do online shopping to lighten up my mood coz I don't have enough to pay😤.
When I think of how times flies and another year had added to our lives especially my parents makes me sad. Looking at them and thinking the un evitable things that may happen gave me sleepless night sometimes. Whenever I remember my grandmother that passed away long time ago makes me sad. I was in my 20's that time when it happened. I remember when I went home for my off day. My grandmother was still strong and active. Her house is just a walking distance to us and she was a normal sight to be seen at home. That day she ask me for money to buy some food stuff. She was living with my uncle(my father's older brother). I was short with cash that time and I told her that I will just buy her food stuff myself and give it to her when I go home next time. She nodded. During that time I don't go home too often(maybe twice a month) that I forgot about it. The next thing I knew is she was gone. It was so sudden. A heart attack. When she was brought to a hospital she didn't make it. That's when I remember the things she was asking me before. I regret not giving It to her and make her happy. It hunts me for so long after her passing. Even until now, though not same as before, It still hunts me in my dreams that I would wake up in tears. That's why nowadays we try to do everything that would make our parents happy. Especially on their birthdays. I don't want to live in regrets anymore😑. If they ask me to, there's nothing I won't do just to make them happy. Life is so unpredictable and nothing is permanent.
This is my first time to participate in memoir monday prompt. This is also my participation in @ericvancewalton prompt contest.
That's all for today.
See you around and wherever you are may happiness find you♥️.