The love I have for Rap (Hip Hop) started with exploring my tastes and stays with NF. I came across this man during the Covid crisis. I guess that I was already isolated enough and then the curfew messed with me. This was undoubtedly the time I warred within me and almost never won.
I love music. As a little girl, I was drawn to music. I was hooked on the vibrations of it, the effect it had on me and how much it sparked my imagination. Music took me to a different planet. I am not talking about just the music we listen to these days. The only evidence I have of music being an irrevocable part of my soul would be the fact that even when all I knew was Frank Edwards and Celine Dion, my imaginations always soared. I guess that was how I started writing some of my stories.
I use music to levitate. Normal people get high on weed and alcohol, Deraa gets high on music. Literally. Plugging music in my ears and walking on the road is like a dangerous combination because I become disenchanted from this world. Everything surrounding me today, I saw in the world of music. I build with music, think with music and breathe music. I may not have the nicest voice but the sound of music flows through my veins. Take that away, and you kill a huge part of me.
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Back to the beginning, I have only one artist I listen to nonstop, and he has never disappointed me. Nate Feuerstein (NF). I came across NF early 2020 thanks to the younger brother of a friend. I was exploring my tastes and interest when I realized I had a huge fascination with Hip Hop. Mostly started with Eminem. I binged on most of his songs I could, mostly repeating ones I really loved. Then I moved on to Logic, Hopsin, Dax, Nicki Minaj, and some others I do not even remember. I remember trying old school like Tupac, 50 cent and Busta Rhymes and frankly, I do not even remember the songs I listened to because I just did it in passing.
However, I met a boy who assured me I would like some guy called NF because I seemed like a “Real” one. He filled my phone with most of Nate’s songs and asked me to listen. I kept putting it off until I finally listened to Only (a mishap) and got sucked in because Jesus! The lyrics! Just who was this guy?
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I remember turning my head to look at my phone with what I am sure would be one of pure shock. I was intrigued and listened to the song again. Soon, I was rapping to it with ease. Then slowly but surely, I started to give all his songs a listen. Went all the way back and downloaded his album Mansion all the way to The Search. I listened and listened and I knew I could never be the same.
This brings me back to how much I enjoy rap. The Rappers I have listened to and the few I liked (narrowed to NF, Eminem and Dax) spit lyrics that set my whole system ablaze. Be it a diss, or something from their life story. There is always something to hold me down. It is orgasmic the friction I feel within layers of my soul. I do not know if it happens with others, but I definitely lose myself in this genre. Mostly likening the lyrics to what I am feeling and trying to understand the underlying meaning behind their words.
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If I want to conclude this long talk about Rap (mostly NF), I will say that Rap is real life. It is poetical bliss. Listening to well-meaning rap is a completely different kind of level and for the rest of my life; Rap (Hip Hop) will always be my preferred genre of music.
