Many things have happened in my life since I took my break from Hive. One of the most important developments was a short but significant relationship with a woman whom I met in an event in August. She resides in Maracay, a city about 1.5 hours west of Caracas that I'd only visited briefly a couple of times before, though I'd crossed it many times on my way to further towns. Out of all the women I've dated, she's the most prepared in terms of esoteric practice, and our interaction began through that as well as her dancing, an activity in which she excels. Everything seemed pretty nice at first and although I wasn't looking for a relationship, least of all long distance (I've had several of those,) I decided to give it a shot and allow myself the experience despite the fact that she's divorced with two girls from different men, and still living in the second man's house, whom she assured me was nothing to her. So I went there, met her friends/students (a small group of women) and gained access to a new territory, sort of like clearing the fog of war.
Now, thanks to all of the things that I've lived prior to and during this year, I've learned to give myself into whatever I feel while also keeping some observational distance, especially in a situation like this, where so many aspects of this woman's life were clouded and strange. I opened up to whatever she had to offer me and simultaneously paid great attention to her actions, words and the energy she was sending me. I quickly noticed all sorts of red flags in her behavior, such as a tendency to exaggerate events in her life to appear as a victim or more capable than she actually was, particularly where men were concerned. She also revealed a manipulative streak and a taste for lying and concealing information. During my visits, she expected me to pay for everything, take pictures and videos of her work for free, and she never stayed even one night with me in a hotel. She never visited me during the short time we were together either and clearly ignored most of what I told her about myself, repeating questions that I'd already answered, constructing weird interpretations of the details I'd given her and making up those that I hadn't. I still enjoyed myself as much as I could given the circumstances and took the opportunity to do my Rune service, carving four stones and leaving them in specific spots of the city, dominated by military buildings and a really low vibration overall.
And here comes the most amazingly absurd part of the story. I'd understand if most readers find it hard to believe but I assure you it's quite true.
Eventually, the red flags grew louder and more common. I caught her trying to deceive me by claiming that she'd seen my mom in dreams doing things that were completely out of character, like preparing our wedding and securing a house for us to live together. As some of you may know from my previous posts here, I have a profound spiritual relationship with my mom and my dad, and with many of my ancestors, so it's a poor idea to use them to persuade me of anything. By the end, she even attempted to extort me by faking an impossible pregnancy and an abortion. I didn't simply broke up with her, but outright blocked her and all of her students who were also checking up on me, saving the entire chat and the pictures she sent me of the fake pregnancy test and the "abortion" as evidence, just in case. Since she couldn't contact me, she got in touch with two of my friends, telling them that due to her "abortion", she had to undergo a difficult clinical procedure and DIED for a few minutes, and that she had to pay for everything herself and wanted me to pitch in as if I were responsible. All of that time she kept doing her dancing classes and posting on social media.
Nevertheless, as I said above, I enjoyed the experience as much as I could and she did help me, both willingly and unknowingly, to confirm, settle and expand my spiritual service. She works with a tool called the Akashic Records and during her sessions with me, she gave vital and useful data that I immediately implemented. Her energy also allowed me to explore deep recesses of doubt, fear and pain within me, and although the relationship could've easily turned sour and conflictive in several occasions (she actively sought that a few times,) there were no confrontations and I remained respectful throughout the entire show. I managed to do that because it wasn't at all the first time that I encounter a woman like her and, albeit she was the one who came closest to dealing damage and wreaking serious havoc in my life, she didn't have a chance. I could see right through her masks from the beginning and she never really knew who she was dealing with, fortunately.
I don't hold a grudge against her and I wouldn't call her names or insult her memory in any way. She may have tried to tie me up and curtail my freedom, but she did it out of great pain, fear, resentment and hatred. I knew that most of her actions and words were unconscious, that's basically the only way she's approached men in her life, and I hope my vanishing and stonewalling will help her realize how poor that approach is. In order to let the whole situation go, I dedicated hours to meditation and reflection, prayer and ritual, sending her Light and blessing her path but also calling forth Justice, Truth and Revelation upon her so that her schemes and lies, which she uses with everyone including her family and students, are unveiled and she finally finds the reckoning that she deserves, and the peace and joy that she really longs for.
I wanted to narrate this experience because it's relevant to other things that I'll share in coming days and weeks, and also as a way to put a final seal on it and move on to more fruitful, beautiful aspects of my recent process. Thanks for taking the time to read this! See you soon!
