WHAT CAN I DO WITHOUT MUSIC?

What can I do without music😊? This very topic just made me smile as I ask myself this very question. Music have indeed been there for me, it might sound a bit awkward but that is simply the case.

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As an individual, I have got a very funny personality. It is as a matter of fact usual for me to look happy even when I am been eaten up from within, only those who are really close to me can testify to this very personality of mine. Given the nature of my personality, I always have to deal with my demons alone. Thank God for music, it has always been there even in my most lonely state. I guess I am not always alone afterall.

Music coming through for me is in fact a frequent occurrence but I will for the purpose of this prompt be tell us about just one of the time when music came through for me. It is the most recent and so the events are still fresh and clear to me. It was just few weeks ago and it was work related.

Earlier last month, I felt like the most incompetent human being on the planet and it really got on me. As a matter of fact, I suffered serious emotional break down, one that many around me never noticed. Specifically, "Don't worry be happy" by Bobby McFerrin was my company through out the time. It was in fact more than a company, it was my consoler and friend. There are so many other times when this particular music kept me going, but the tales will certainly be for another day.

On the twelfth of September 2024, I got to realize that my stock was completely disorganized. I realised that goods wort over a hundred thousand naira were missing. My job description as the admin in my place of work was simple, check and keep track of the stock as well as the account. I obviously was unable to deliver this time, the only consolation was that I have been delivering all the while. As a matter of fact, it was my fifth month of being the company's admin. But that never stopped me from feeling the way I did, and it never stop many crazy things from going through my mind.

I am to be blamed given that I failed to do so many things the right way. There was indeed so many lapses from my own side, I guess my workers identified that and preyed on it. To a great extent it made me realize what some of them are capable of. That not withstanding, the first day was simply not funny.

On the very first day when I realised that my goods were missing, I was completely broken. I simply left my music player on repeat as I listened to "don't worry be happy" by Bobby McFerrin. Listening to it at that particular point in time, I felt like "what will be will be" and that I simply had to face my reality. I got the feeling I needed for the moment and it helped me sleep that night. The next day was certainly not funny, everyone at work noticed that I was not happy. It was written all over my attitude, an attitude that will certainly not last a week. Nevertheless, I do not think what happened would ever happen again on my watch. That is if I am not sacked😀😢

As for the repacaution of my actions, the month has just ended and I have written and submitted my report to my boss awaiting his response. I guess he would consider the fact that I have been delivering and treat this very case with leniency. Nevertheless, what will be will be...