The First time I dropped out of school, I had to tell everyone it was due to the fact that I didn't have money to continue, but this wasn't just about not having money, it was about being in situations where needing money was inevitable hence bringing the pressure to do unthinkable things to get that money.
During this period, My father had just died and my mother was hospitalized for months, so I didn't just need money for myself, they also needed money for medical requirements. I had to draw a mental scale of preference of which was more important and sadly, their health was more important, keeping my mental health intact was more important, keeping my body from crashing due to unnecessary stress was important.
Sadly, I had to keep my decision tethered to Money. Although I could have kept pushing, I felt that ultimately, I'd lose in the long run, because I didn't have the resources to continue, the zeal to continue died inside of me. I wasn't a person who would subject himself to begging to have the basic things of life.
So the thoughts of waking up every day to beg people for five years to survive in college created a Mental image in me, what if the people I was begging got tired of giving, and I had gotten to a point where I can no longer return, what measures would I have to resort to, to get to the finishing line? I saw myself futuristically doing unimaginable things for money, gambling was one of them.
Being in the ultimate state of need can trigger the pressure to do anything
When people become too needy it takes away the advantage of choices, and when people's choices are taken away in life, they'll have no option but to succumb to doing questionable things. You see, there's a difference between not having money and needing money.
When my parents were alive, we never had enough, but we never got into emergency situations where this financial situation was tested. Some people can feed, clothe, and shelter, but anything beyond this, they cannot do. If they were to have a medical emergency, their state of poverty is going to be strikingly evident.
There are people in life who don't know their state of lack and a few of these people might be lucky to never have to face a financial emergency, but the ones who are unlucky to have to, these are the people who might experience the pain of choicelessness and be exposed to doing unimaginable things for money. For example, someone who sleeps with another person to raise money for school fees or medical bills.
The joy or pleasure in having sex is removed because they'll feel violated for crossing a line. However, this is why we must be conscious enough. When I dropped out of school the first time, I had enough money to cater to some needs for just a short period, but what eventually happens after that?
The exposure to unimaginable lack leads to an unquestionable craving for survival.
Nevertheless, life is full of so many people who are not conscious enough, it would be difficult to explain these things to them, so the easiest thing would be to attach unaffordability to your goals and aims because this is what almost everyone can understand.
Money was the explainable factor when people cannot continue building their dreams, I mean, it's absurd to tell people that you gave up on your dreams because you could not cope with the way life violates your mental fortitude, simply blaming money as the problem was easier for people to understand and this is because we place money at the center of our existence, attaching it with invisible equality to every problem we have in life, either it's physical or not.
While this isn't bad
It creates an incursion there are times that we incur problems that something as simple as love and attention would take care of, but because we didn't have this, we just simply blamed it on money. This is because we usually feel that money is the source of achievement. In life, it's usually difficult to admit our problems are beyond Money, especially when money is built to solve almost every problem in the 21st century.
I was talking to a person one day, they asked me why I preferred attending online church services rather than the physical ones and they scolded me for choosing the easier option. I wanted to tell them that my health issues, creates a niggling limitation for me, but seeing that they weren't conscious enough to understand, I simply told them I didn't have the money for transportation and this they could easily understand.
Money problems Are Relatable
Some people's understanding are limited to this
Because it was easy to tie my problem to money, I easily did so, because the world is easily filled with people who seem intelligent on the surface, but lack the right consciousness for proper comprehension.
This isn't to say money does not take care of everything, but money itself tampers with the very fiber of our mental anatomy. It can create physical solutions, but sometimes our problems already ripples into psychological embers where the reach of money becomes impossible.
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