Hello everyone, how are you? I hope you're all well. Searching for purpose in life, what I want to do, has been a big question for me this year. What is my purpose in life and who am I? I always ask myself those two questions at the beginning of the year. Depression at the end of the year prevented me from pursuing my dreams again.
Actually, since 2024, I've been questioning my existence in my work. Is this really what I want? Working in a community organization and advocating through media campaigns? But it feels like every time I do my job, something is missing, and I feel dissatisfied. Furthermore, I feel constantly blamed for all the problems at work.
Even the smallest thing, until finally, I ask myself: Is this the purpose of my work? Am I ready to accept being yelled at for making mistakes? And then, I get no appreciation while others do? A number of questions arose in my life in the middle of 2024.
Until finally, I collapsed at the end of 2024. My body could no longer support the burden. Long story short, I resigned, and from there, I began to question myself while meditating. In meditation, I appear cheerful and full of laughter. Again, I wondered, why have I been so gloomy all this time?
Until April-June, I began therapy with the Sedona Method. I cried almost every day. Besides Sedona, I use human design to understand myself and how I work. I delved deeper into my inner wounds through human design. At the beginning of the year, I just journaled. But it didn't have a significant impact.
The Sedona Method, meditation, and somatic exercises helped me choose and rediscover my life's purpose. By the beginning of this month, I had the courage to define my life goals again. I want to become an expert in media campaigns. And I want to continue my studies in another country.
I've already started my studies. This year, while undergoing therapy, I began applying for scholarships. Earlier this month, I also outlined my dream for two years from now. I'm using videos and photos—basic things I enjoy and have recently learned about. I'm starting to plan short-term and long-term.
I'm using photos and videos on Shutterstock. Today, I also have a team to develop my mini studio on Shutterstock. I have planned the long and short term. Who will be on the team, how many people, where will the studio be? What kind of video theme will I use? I started to dare to dream and have goals again.
It felt like, when I did that, I felt reborn. I felt my life and ambitions starting to come back. This month too, I started to dare to leave the house, go around a number of places and enjoy the afternoon or evening. It feels very peaceful. That's all I can tell you about finding my purpose in life. See you in my other stories.
My name is Nurdiani Latifah. I live in Jakarta – Indonesia, and after 25 years I live in Bandung. I am a media staff at an NGO in Indonesia. I have worked in this institution for almost 2 years on issues of women and peace. I have been a journalist in Bandung for 3 years.
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