To me, the hardships of life is one of the many things that makes life unique, special, and worth living. What if there is no problem to overcome? What if we got it in a platter of gold and we need not hustle, struggle or dig the ground for food and other important things of life? Wouldn't that make us lazy, mentally stagnated?
Life is a bitter-sweet place where in most cases, the strong always win while the weak either loss or rely on the support of other people to win. Same applied to the rich and the poor.
Sometimes, i do ask my self what the purpose of life is. Why live if we are bound to inevitably die? Why do we go to work only for our bosses and sometimes, senior colleagues to humiliate us? Is the struggle worth it? Since we are bound to die anyways, why not I just give up on my dreams and die? It'll be easier and faster though painful too.
I'm not suicidal, no, but most times, I can't help it but think about these things anytime i perform last offices to my patient in the ward. Life is nothing. Nothing is in life. Why brag? Why hurt people? Why not live in peaceful harmony with others?
Sometimes, when the waves of life engulfs me to the point of almost drowning, I can't help it but have a deep thought of what the meaning of life truly is.
I use to have a very bad boss. I hated her with everything in me but i could not quit the job because I really needed the money and experience. As a newly graduated Nurse, I had to endure a lot of things. When i see my boss coming from one side, i will follow another road so that our paths will not cross. She don't even respond to our greetings when we greeted her. All the nurses in the hospital were fed up but none could do anything. Many nurses worked in the hospital but they did not last there. However, i thought i would be different irrespective of my boss's attitude towards her nurses.
Two weeks into the job, i was fired. My whole world came crashing. Early into my career, i had such bad luck. Why me? I asked myself. What did i do wrong? I sat at the floor, Hopes lost. Left with thoughts, I almost fried my brain. Eyes red, tears about to come out but the only thing that kept ringing in my head was my Surname - Nwoko. Nwoko means man.
You are a man, you will scale through. Don't wallow in self pity. Don't exhaust yourself with thoughts, but think of a solution. What's the way forward? My heart was melted already, but I never wanted that self pity engulf me. I tried, shouted at myself, beat my self up, but then, with my surname ringing in my head, I continued the hustle, regardless how I felt.
My hustle is not for myself. I'm noit doing it for me, but for the people i will impact in the future. My struggles are for my unborn children who i don't want to suffer as i'm suffering. They will face many challenges, I will make sure of that, but they will never suffer. My motivation comes from wanting my mom to enjoy my wealth. Let her be proud to say to the world - This is my son, Daniel, whom I carried for 9 months, breastfed for 6 months and took care of through thick and thin. My motivation comes from wanting to help people who are as less privileged as I am.
Like i always tell my friends, my dreams are very much bigger than just being rich and financially free. Financial freedom is just a stepping stone to achieving my dreams.
Thank you for reading.
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