Hola Vibes fam!☺
I'm not especially chatty right now so I'll just give a quick backstory of the process behind my entry this week.🙃
This vibes week was a particularly busy one for me, so it was hard finding time to do a song.
When I did find time, my voice wouldn't agree with my song choices or my mind would be overly critical of how the results sounded (I'm sure you can relate if you're a singer).🥂
The funny thing is how I ended up doing the randomest song. I love Billie Eilish but I don't listen to her much (@babymoyin is probably going to be a tad bit disappointed by that😅).
The piano instrumental popped up on my YouTube feed and it was easy and lovely to sing along to..even though I'd never really listened to it or scored it before.
It also felt like a release for the things I was feeling at the time..and so here we are.🙃
Everything I wanted by Billie Eilish is a song about her experience with depression. She had a dream where she committed suicide, hence, the "I had a dream..I got everything I wanted".
She also talks about how she found her relationship with her brother (who she confided in about the dream) in lines like, "when I wake up, I see you with me" and "as long as I'm here, no one can hurt you"
It's a really beautiful song with a haunting backstory and however random, I'm glad I did it.💜
I said I wasn't chatty but I think I typed a lot already😅
I hope you enjoy listening and I look forward to reading your thoughts after.☺
Thank you if you read this far.
Till next time, stay vibing!🌻
Lyrics
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
Not what you'd think
And if I'm being honest
It might've been a nightmare
To anyone who might care
Thought I could fly (fly)
So I stepped off the Golden, mm
Nobody cried (cried, cried, cried, cried)
Nobody even noticed
I saw them standing right there
Kinda thought they might care (might care, might care)
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me
And you say, "As long as I'm here
No one can hurt you
Don't wanna lie here
But you can learn to
If I could change
The way that you see yourself
You wouldn't wonder why you're here
They don't deserve you"
I tried to scream
But my head was underwater
They called me weak
Like I'm not just somebody's daughter
Coulda been a nightmare
But it felt like they were right there
And it feels like yesterday was a year ago
But I don't wanna let anybody know
'Cause everybody wants something from me now
And I don't wanna let 'em down
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me
And you say, "As long as I'm here
No one can hurt you
Don't wanna lie here
But you can learn to
If I could change
The way that you see yourself
You wouldn't wonder why you're here
They don't deserve you"
If I knew it all then would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead?
If I knew it all then would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead?