I don’t understand the fine line between sanity and insanity, although I’ve seen people near me change and it feels as though their sensibility has gone out of the window like smoke in the breeze.
These people changed, gradually at first, and then like a train wreck they ended up speaking in riddles and in such a way as that it became impossible to believe a word out of their mouth because they believed lies; about both themselves and others.
I won’t name anyone by name. It’s not for me to disclose such matters and, for the sake of this publication, I feel that it is not necessary in the least.
Suffice it to say that I visited two separate mental hospitals to see two different people whom I care for very much and I saw with my own eyes the devastating results of a deteriorated mind once choices led them to failed (thanks be to God) suicide attempts.
I collected another person, close to me,, from an emergency room with the help of a sympathetic driver who volunteered to help take me to the next state over after this person's unintentional, failed suicide attempt. I then saw this dear one safely home by plane.
As I write, it occurs to me Mother’s Day weekend is the anniversary of this event.
I learned that people can teeter on precarious ground when faced with formidable obstacles.
Depending on personal mettle, someone may choose to fight, or they may long to run; disappear or attempt death at their own hand.
I was fortunate to meet the Lord Jesus at the age of nineteen; mother to an infant.
I signed up for marriage to a boy who was six months my senior and one who had no sense of his adult responsibilities, in addition to his controlling streak. This combination is a lethal mixture and, although I was young, I already felt the chain’s tightening.
Why I didn’t choose the path of drugs, despair or suicide is beyond discernment. My life was ripe for choices others before me chose, for several reasons, to end their life. Several succeeded.
I kept my own sensibilities because I am kept by One who is greater than all. Heartbreak and suffering are inevitable to the human condition. Never think for a moment that there aren’t other paths to choose than what appears to you as the most obvious or easiest choice, or that choice which your mind suggests as most logical to you.
The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it? Jeremiah 17:9 KJV
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