Recently I explained to someone how the last time I was what I would concider truly ill was around when I was 13 or so. Those early years before hangover.
Guess I jinxed myself.
Went to take a nap just past midnight thinking ok a nice little 30minute nap is a good recharge. It is now almost 5am. The thing about my naps is sure I should get up soon that is the point but I also never do. Yes. It is a constant battle.
Anyway, I tend to leave the lights on and just nap, when I do and if I do wake up in that period then all is good in the world.
If I don't then it just means I need to go suffer at work sooner. So no real diff.
But I think I am ill.
I woke up eventually as I said around 4 5ish, had the weirdest dream and honestly woke up cause the dream was just pissing me off.
Now it could be related to me not having accomplished what I wanted to do this evening, my body could be telling me to go eat for the day heck could be detox from my high sugar intake.
Mainly I think it is with not having done what I really wanted to do today, but I got so frustrated with what I was doing that I deemed it a safer alternative to take a nap.
I think my mind and body thinks that they are in control. So maybe I am ill but I sure as fuck am not getting up at 5am.
Night. Again.