I am not the best person to try and cheer you up (and I am glad that your writing has helped).
I very much understand that foreboding sense of emptiness that drags down upon our beings to make every little thing that we do seem like such a chore. this down to every breath that we take.
All we can do is to try and shake it up - change our environment and our behavior patterns. Perhaps - just maybe - we'll be able to shake off the depressive gene that seems to grow dominant in those hours.
All the best.
RE: Your entitled first world slave is depressed again