Dear girl,
Don't try to force things with him. You can't force consistency. You can't force attention. You can't force effort. You can't force chemistry. You can't force understanding. You can't force patience. You can't force loyalty. You can't force honesty. You can't force trust. You can't force commitment. You can't force a connection. The love that used to be there is no longer there and it hasn't been for awhile and as much as you want it back, you can't force it to happen because by forcing it, you're only making things worse. You're actually forcing other things to happen. You're only driving him further away you. You're only causing more distance between you two. You're only building more resentment towards one another. You're only giving him more reasons to not care. You're only showing him how controlling you can be. You're only implying how desperate you are. Don't do that to him, but more importantly, don't do that to yourself. To you, you're fighting to make things work and to save the relationship, but the truth is you're only disappointing yourself when things don't meet the expectations you've set and that'll only hurt you more. Please, don't hurt yourself for someone who genuinely wouldn't be affected too deeply if it were to end because it isn't worth it and it stopped being worth it awhile ago and deep down, you know it did. He may love you enough to stay with you, but he doesn't love you enough to make you feel loved every day anymore, and that's not someone you should waste anymore of yourself with. So, stop forcing love because it's either there or it isn't and if it isn't, you shouldn't be either.
Sincerely, a guy who cares