Dear girl,
I know your relationship with him ended not too long ago and at this very moment, you're going thru relationship withdrawals. You know, where you're thinking about him, what he's been doing, if he's been seeing anybody lately, if he's thinking about you or not. Where you miss him calling you "babe", you miss reading that "I miss you" text message from him, you miss seeing his name appear when you got an incoming call or a new text message, you miss talking to him throughout the day. Where you feel this urge to go to his Facebook and check out his latest updates, you feel tempted to lurk on his Instagram to see if he's been doing anything fun, you feel curious to see who he's been hanging out with so you investigate thru someone else's Snapchat, where you're wondering if he's doing fine without you. These relationship withdrawals, they just kick in randomly and they hit you at the most unexpected moments and it literally depresses you, doesn't it? He's always been there and now that he isn't, it's weird. It just doesn't feel right. You're trying to readjust to being single and it's hard because you haven't been on your own for so long. I know what you're going thru and I'm not going to lie to you. It's going to hurt and it's going to continue hurting for a long time, but you just have to let yourself feel it all because let me remind you, you two didn't work out for a reason. You two broke up for a reason. You two didn't last for a reason. And sure, it would be easy to run back to him and jump right back in to the relationship, but there would be a very high chance of you two breaking up again for the very same reason and it would just be an endless cycle of breaking up and getting back together. You don't need to be a part of something as toxic and dysfunctional as your relationship with him had become. You're better than that, but that's only if you allow yourself to have something better than that and I think that's what you deserve, don't you? It may not feel like it and it may be hard to believe right now, but you're going to be okay and "okay" is the first step towards being happy. Don't lose all of the progress you've already made by giving in to familiar feelings.
Sincerely,
A guy who cares