I could pretend like this isn't an overtly Christian post and try to lure you in with some other pretense. Then, once you had read most of it, I'd throw that hook and say "gotcha"! But, I don't feel like lying today.
Me
Hello, this is me. My name is Ethan Jared Allen, I live on the road full-time, (in a 45-foot bus). I've been living this way since I was 4-months-old, and I am currently based out of Hammond, LA, USA... and I'm terrified!
Why?
Because I'll be 22 come April 2nd, (the day after Easter), and I don't think I deserve to be 22.
'splain yo self
What I mean is that I don't see growth, (spiritually, mentally, personality), that justifies me being 22 years of age. Still not getting this? Well, here's the deal: I don't feel like I've done enough in the first 21 years of my life to deserve a 22nd year of life. Do you have the general idea now?
Ever feel like that?
I do, quite often.
I'm a good guy!
I am! Really! Some might even call me a model Christian by the way I look on the outside. I tithe 20%, (God only requires 10%, but I give the extra as an offering). I give 1/3 of my net income to charities and missions organizations. I travel and minister the gospel full-time, 365 days a year, living in a bus. I sing in church every Sunday, wear a suit and tie, talk about God on social media and blogs, (like right now). I do devotions every morning, read the Bible, pray, take mission trips at least once a year.
I. Am. A. Really. Good. Guy. Right?!
Not Enough
What is enough? Do I have to sell everything and give to the poor, abandon all worldly possessions to follow Christ? Well yes. If He calls me to that life I need to obey, but I'm already doing that. What then? Do I need to give my life for His cause? Perhaps eventually, if it comes down to it... Why don't I feel satisfied with what I'm doing for Christ?
Maybe it's because I'm a fake. Yeah, you heard me. A fake, and phony, an actor.
True, everything I told you about my life is accurate, I do all of those things for Christ. But I'm also a sinner on the side, (go figure). I stray, disobey, rebel, and just plain sin even though I'm this great Christian.
What is Enough?
Enough is when Jesus is the only thing on my mind, in my heart. My one desire, one goal, the only thing before my eyes. Enough is when I sell out to His cause and nothing, NOTHING else matters to me. When my love is His alone, when I live each day like I will see Him before tomorrow, when I'm following Him so closely you can't tell us apart, that's enough.
I will not be perfect or completely conformed into the image of my savior until I get to Heaven and glory, but I can be transparent on earth, so that when people look at me, they see Him through me.
Today, I will live like Jesus is coming again before tomorrow. May nothing I do bring shame to the cross or to Christ. I love you all, but only because I love Him first and only!
--stay classy, jazz kats!
Don't follow me. Follow Jesus!