God created me as a part of this family because I could bear the burden.
I have found freedom through the braided loops all the way back to the source of my worldly possessions being "usurped" from me.
Long ago Titus Livius took a surname from an unrecognized king. An outsider, for the colony of outsiders that founded the Roman "Kingdom" and these type of myths repeat so far back they lose date - because mythology continues to evolve with time, rather than have been completed before the beginning of time.
Call it illegitimacy, salic, semi-salic, whatever you want. A name change, an unfinished English language, a Romance language that isn't considered formal like Latin. I don't care.
All I know is I have been set free through the teachings of my God. I have learned from our savior in Jesus Christ, then Jesus "of Nazareth" or whatever he went by in his spoken Assyrian language - Aramaic.
I don't miss the possessions the world denies me, nor the good I've been used to create for the excess of wealth in this system. Charlemagne lost his rear guard in the Pyrenees - so he needed wives and sons (even as co-ruler, Louis the Pious) to obtain his worldly power.
All worldly power the rulers possess die with the king. Some of us are as much the source of that power in the present as those were in the ancient past.
So Titus Livius aka "Livy" may have had a good life with an unknown source of wealth as far as history will publicly admit. But secret treaties throughout time leave enough tracks so as to repeat in the future whenever an empire winds back to the beginning to strengthen once more and begin again.
If I can see that, I can live with it. God wanted me to see what I see and that's good enough for me.
When the world comes to me for help in an honest a public way - I can handle it.
If they do not, I've already come to God in my heart and that's good enough for me. I will and have always been a soldier of Christ, in his most Noble Order of Knighthood.