Life has been weird, crazy and doesn't make sense these past 3 years. Covid suddenly arrive and I got my pay cut to half and I couldn't afford rent so I left the job and stop renting the room. So many people betrayed me but I made a mistake by betraying an angel. I never understood why I betrayed her she was the perfect woman for me even my mum said she wish I would have married her she was truly an angel she understood me she embrace all my flaws like it was nothing. I never understand why I betrayed her for Lilith I'm not even happy with Lilith the first week I met Lilith I knew she was toxic she only wants what she wants without wanting to understand me. But angel Eve she knows me in and out my needs my wants she knows everything about me.
She even said I betrayed her and I made her cried for weeks I was in pain the whole time the whole 3 years I was in pain because I knew I f#ck up this one I f#ck up with the perfect woman just because I couldn't handle my depression I f#ck it up. To the angel and to the love of my life I am truly sorry for everything you help me in ways that only u and I know we help each other in our worse moments but I know I was draining you too much you were unhappy with me I know it's best for you to leave and you made the correct decision.
Look at you now I always knew you would be someone important, someone with full of knowledge, a person who is always kind and loving towards others, you never had any hatred you are always perfect, you became so beautiful after you left, you became happy, you became the best version of yourself. I wish you could be this amazing when you were with me but we both know I am beyond help I am broken even before you met me being with me will slow you down, being with me you won't achieve anything i wish I could make you happy but it's best you choose your own path to greatness and you did perfectly well.
You will always be my angel even if I can't have you. I love you always, always had and always will be. I will try my best not to disturb you in anyway eventhough I'm struggling to do just that these past 3 years and you did told me you don't want me anymore because you're happy now I knew you were I wish I never asked you that question but well you know how pathetic I can be.
Goodbye angel thank you for showing me that not all woman use men not all woman are evil not all woman are cruel you're just a rare angel that I accidentally met and fall in love with. Even after 3 years I'm struggling to write this message for you tears are rolling down my cheeks as I write this. I don't know how long this regret gonna last but I regret I never treat you better you always try to plan something for us to do I don't know why I stop the more I think about it I remembered how paralysed I was I couldn't think I couldn't speak but you were always there to cheer me up you did everything right I just wish I open my eyes that time but I didn't. You loved me day and night without fail you loved me every second without fail. You really did love me dear angel.
I don't know if I ever find another angel as perfect as you take care and keep safe Eve I will always miss you, will always miss your love, will always miss your cute walk I always make fun of your cuteness until today when I think about it it made me smile, I love how short you're because my lips is exactly on your forehead where I love to kiss you the most, you always tip toe so you can reach my lips to kiss me you're so adorable and loving. I miss your cutest laugh it made me laugh as well, I miss how you look at me and smile at me with full of love and admiration eventhough I am nothing, I miss how you run towards me and hug me tight when I arrive home from work no one has done this for me all this for the past 3 years. My god I truly lost you.
I love you angel I truly do.
The End.
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Dreams are the only time when you're away from the harsh reality of life. The unfairness and the ugliness of life. Dream is the only time your mind is free to explore what you always desire. A special place just for you and you only. No one else can touch it. No one else can smell it. It's almost heaven. ~ragnarhewins90