Back to school, back to school...
Life is a set of experiences that align you to greater knowing.
A while ago I wrote about learning from every part of life so it's really great to see the chapter start off saying that we are here to learn lessons. I think many of us wonder what the purpose of life is. Would learning be enough of an answer, would coming into a greater understanding be grand enough to accept?
I think so, I think when you take life as the greatest teacher available to us, one where we experience countless lifetimes in order to learn who and what we are through experiences of love, pain, joy, fear, that it goes far beyond our expectations for our purpose. We're here to take that next step thatw e need in order to learn. We're here to go ujp a grade, and in this time, right now, we have the opportunity to accelerate the process:
[...] we are deciding now to bypass a program that was set in place by you, by all of you, that this kind of growth towards spiritualization, towards understanding yourself as spirit, would take many lifetimes.
Now is the time, we get cheat codes! The time is changing, we are entering a new age. That means the rules are changing, so we don't have to do things the way we've always done them. More of our truth is being revealed to us, but as stated in Part 3, we have to choose it, if we don't we are in for a bumpy ride. Because the change IS happening, whether we want it to or not. This is not a time where a few people have this opportunity, this is a time where change is happening.
You have decided already prior to incarnation that this would be the lifetime that you would manifest yourself fully in consciousness. And while this has retained its memory in your being in a subtle way, many of you only now are waking up to this possibility through the actions of this text and the circumstances that led you to read it. The chain of events has been in place for many years, and this is the time that the chain is opened and inclusive and everyone is coming to it.
What are you waiting for?
Aim that claim...
The rest of the chapter involves more claims. Our claim of worth is the first and the most challenging to believe and accept. This claim will be the focus for this article. The other claims are very powerful in aligning and aiding us, but I feel that for those of us still identified as the individual, this will be the biggest hurdle.
According to the guides the phrase "Word I am Word" is a more potent version of "I am that I am" in aligning us to the Christ frequency. Word is God in action, claiming that frequency helps us to align to it. Eventually we will understand and know the phrase to be true as we speak it.
Word I am Word through my belief that I am worthy of this journey of the spirit. Word I am Word. I am Word through the self-worth that requires me to believe that I am entitled as a child of God to come into my manifestation as my Christed Self. Word I am Word through this intention. Word I am Word.
I've found it difficult at times to consider myself worthy of knowing what I truly am. I feel like I've glimpsed it, I've felt the joy that comes with it, there was never a reason why anyone would be excluded when I felt that. Yet it can still be a struggle to stop thinking that I have to do something, that I need to get better at something in order to be ready and worthy of it. I feel this is one of the main challenges people encounter when letting go to higher intelligence...
We've been conditioned to think and define, and our self image has been in place for a long time. Sure, we adjust it as we go, but some of our habits and thoughts and ideas and beliefs are programmed in. They run on autopilot, flying under the radar of our conscious mind. Even things as simple as walking should be brought into our conscious awareness, but the insidious things we tell ourselves and believe need to be brought to light. We need to start becoming aware of the thoughts and beliefs and judgments we hold so we can find the root of why we believe those things.
I've been reading the book Conscious Language in conjunction with these teachings, and they further reinforce how claims work. Basically we get what we claim, so when we say things like "I want _____," we claim we don't have that because wanting something is only done when we feel like we lack it. So if we want enlightenment, or love, or whatever, we are claiming we don't have it. So the real key to these claims is to feel like they are true, to come from a place where we already have what we seek.
Freeing ourselves from this sense that we are unworthy of love or understanding or whatever it is we feel unworthy of will allow us to open up and receive the gift we are being given. We can open up to the love that is always here, and to the help and guidance being given. Once we remove our "knowing" of who we are and how things work we open ourselves to the truth. The ol' you can't fill a cup that's already full.
There is nothing to be afraid of in this letting go of what we "know." We are still here, we aren't destroyed. In fact, "you become who you truly are." The personality remains, but it is transformed into a higher personality. The ego is not evil, it's neutral', so don't be afraid that you will lose your individuality, individuality is really beautiful.
DYOR
The other claims in the chapter seemed to have a strong effect on me. I was reading this book on the plane so I had a good place to meditate on the claims, to begin to feel what it's like to come from the place where each claim felt true, and I can confidently say each gave clarity, and more importantly at this stage, confidence. If we don't believe this type of change is possible, we block ourselves from it. Simply saying the words is helpful, but feeling them to be true can accelerate our results even more.
If you are working through the book, try to get in a place where you feel each claim to be true. The wording is such that intellectually you can't understand what it would be like for it to be true, that's why feeling and experience are so important. They tell us what words can't.
If you aren't working through the book, I recommend paying attention to your self talk and adjusting it. Pay attention to everything you do or say if you can. It's daunting at first, and I know I lapse quite frequently, but the more effort put into it the more natural it becomes. Once we know what we are saying and doing we can consciously adjust.
Closing
Looks like I wrote more than I wanted to yet again! Working through this book is real work, I like to spend at least a full day on each chapter, preferably two, before moving on. The teaching here is significant, which is part of the reason for the repetition. It's challenging to "get" right away. Keep working at it, keep the faith, eventually you will get experiential confirmation.
And when that doubt creeps in again because of a lifetime of telling ourselves we aren't worthy, that we're insignificant people, change the way you talk, change the way you respond to events, and see how much control you actually have in experiencing and creating this life.
Courage and self-confidence are two beacons which must never be extinguished on the path to higher knowledge.
-Rudolph Steiner
Thanks for reading,
All unmarked quotes are from I Am the Word by Paul Selig