I think many would agree that there are few people more deserving. Your holdings of Steem, rewards for historic work, are irrelevant. I think many would also agree that you deserve those and far more.
If auto-voting and whale-voting curators blow up the rewards, so be it. It's already happening, often to authors who are perhaps less deserving.
It was a noble choice to reject your own rewards, but please, accept something for your enormous contribution to the quality of this platform. You will only encourage others who have something important to preserve or say.
All the best.